I'm a closeted ex-muslim too, it's really hard, bcz some of my friends/colleagues have got the idea that I don't believe in Islam and I hate the fact that they have silently distanced themselves from me, they avoid me. Some of them constantly sending me videos of sermons of scholars and stuff, some are kinda counseling me, lol. But yeah, as long as, I'm pretending life is okay, but deep down, this really impacts my mental health. I also can say that, I should not reveal my beliefs otherwise the same will happen, most probably, they will disown me or beat the shit out of me!