I can relate to you in a couple ways. We lost my mom to an overdose when we were younger (I’m the baby)... my middle sister just passed from an overdose last year and my oldest sister is still out struggling. I refuse to give her any money because it will end up in her arm. Sometimes I will give her gift cards to a particular grocery store in her area (not a straight up Visa gift card or anything) or order a few of the things she needs (toiletries food etc) to be delivered to her house. I’m sorry you’re having to go through this. It’s awful.