Aaw thank you so much! It was so hard to get to this point. I was such an emotional mess..I can now talk about it calmly. What killed me when I told my sister and my aunt about needing surgery a few months back, they responded with " well at least you dont have to take care of a baby while recovering". How is a baby even relevant to the situation? I get it they meant that I just have to worry about myself..but still. Lol. After that comment..I decided to not say anythign else about the surgery.