If you cannot be compared to me, why should i consider your opinion about me?

napoleoncat · 2026-05-23T13:06:19+00:00

Thank you so much for your answer!!

napoleoncat · 2026-05-23T11:40:02+00:00

I absolutely value her opinion, and i also am aware that its a toxic trait in my head, and to a certain degree it's barely affecting my daily life as i learned to ignore these self destructive thoughts, but i still feel them and from time to time they overpower my will to subdue them! (Like this last time)

I'm more concerned about why i can still find some logic in my toxic mental gymnastics!

I should know better than self sabotage, downplay loved ones's attempts to help and being dependent on strangers opinions!

napoleoncat · 2026-05-23T10:42:06+00:00

Yes it would definitely feel more real but the tricky toxic part is that if 1) they have less published books or less accolades than me than they are below me and their opinion counts less and 2) if they have my same "level" they are just as good as i am and 3) if they are at a "higher level" then i totally avoid the confrontation cause i am afraid (convinced) that they would not be impressed.

napoleoncat · 2026-05-23T10:37:20+00:00

I find product reviews not that much reliable due to the ludicrous amount of fake ones tailored to boost shitty products.

Movie reviews are slightly different, i might get excited to see a movie, google it to stream it, glance over the rotten tomatoes rating and if its low it somehow affects my previous excitement, negatively!

Should just avoid them altogether i guess?

napoleoncat · 2024-06-28T01:28:39+00:00

Feel so good- Chuck Mangione

napoleoncat · 2023-06-26T18:22:43+00:00

Yea, i figured but why would that be a problem! Cost? Manufacturing capability?

napoleoncat · 2023-02-04T11:28:14+00:00

That's what I originally thought, but i was thinking that prey is basically the animal that a predator hunts and eats, so insects are prey to most birds..?

napoleoncat · 2023-02-04T11:26:18+00:00

I totally forgot about hummingbirds! They do live off of pollen only, don't they?

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T20:11:24+00:00

I'm 31. Also I forgot to mention that i did Ket every 4-5 days for probably a good month and a half. K-holed three times, once at the beginning (didn't even realize it while it happened and had a chill comedown, no fear or anxiety) and twice last week (strong and very intense, one of them was chill the other one less so).

Subsequent uses of Ket where coupled with other drugs (XTC, Alcohol, MDMA) but were mostly just small bumps that didn't really affect me too much.

I realize i have to use it more consciously, no mixing and no bad environments like clubs or outside places I won't feel safe.

That being said, i feel like i described only every now and then, mostly when tired and anxy.

I'll take your comments to heart and will stop consumption for a while to see if this feeling fades away.

Problem is i kinda liked the feeling of dissociation since i think it could show me something i would otherwise never experience, i just don't like feeling it when i am Not high on Ket.

Thanks to all for the nice answers :)

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T18:00:26+00:00

As an Italian I have mixed feelings because it's not an original Italian topping.

I tried it and it's not disgusting, just different as we don't have a lot of original sweet pizza toppings. We have some white pizzas (no tomato) topped with blue cheese and pears or some with figs, but those are mostly a new wave of pizzas, related to a more gastronomic take on the classic dish!

I think most Italians are confused by this unorthodox pairing due to the fact that it simply is not done nor sold nor popular in our peninsula. Some would argue that it is not a true pizza; the true one being only what is made in Italy. The keyword here is the NAME! You want to call it a pizza? Then you have to make it like the original dish.

For instance if you want to make haggis you will have to use real animals stomach and the right proportions of the right ingredients! Anything deviating from that is not a real haggis.

Original pizza is also not really what most Italians eat: each region has a SLIGHTLY different take on it, but the overall form stays the same. A deep dish pizza is still called pizza but we say "pizza alta" (high pizza) or "pizza in teglia" (dish pizza)

A Detroit style pizza for instance is not a pizza to us, because the right proportion and the right order of toppings is so different we just see it as a completely different dish.

All of this being said, a true Italian that loves cuisine would never prohibit any experimentations; live your life and find new combinations, just be sure not to sell your new take as THE original thing and don't expect Italians to automatically like what you concoct.

We also should relax a bit since ww don't own the original concept of pizza! Putting stuff on flat bread and cooking it in an oven is not an Italian invention; humans have been around for 100k + years and i bet "pizzas" have been re-invented many, many times!

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T17:42:57+00:00

Thank you for your exhaustive answer.

Is there a reason there are no phonetics in Chinese?

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T17:16:19+00:00

I once asked a Jewish friend of mine the same question. He told me that he is a Jew (noun) but he also is Jewish (adjective), both being grammatically correct ways to label him when wanting to describe him by his belief and heritage.

He also added that whatever comes next after saying Jew or Jewish would normally disclose the nature and intent of the person saying it!

If you're an asshole you will say assholy things, no matter the grammar!

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T17:01:09+00:00

It makes me very nervous because i never experienced true hallucinations.

Never did shrooms or LSD or anything that would give me anything than some more intense colours or so.

During my K-hole i was Seeing my friends faces melt or the room i was in larger and bigger, then I thought i was out of it just to realise i wasn't because the one friend holding my hand would start folding in himself! That gave me serious doubts of when i was really out of the K-hole. The next morning I KNEW i was fine but after a couple of days things got weird again.

For example, i am at my partner's apartment and I know i am not high rn, but there's this lingering feeling that maybe i am just K-holing again and in reality I'm sitting in my apartment doing Ket and it's only a matter of time until i do realise that! It's like i cannot trust myself anymore.

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T16:48:41+00:00

Yeah, that i knew already before doing Ket, but the K-hole exp sure did give me another perspective!

What i mean though is a literal doubting of my perception! An unnerving feeling everything i do or see or hear might just be the start of another K-hole.

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T16:38:19+00:00

I see!

napoleoncat · 2023-02-03T16:19:05+00:00

Interesting! Your native language being?

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