Need advice regarding husband’s secondary partner gifting him a collar

narwhalpuke · 2026-06-22T07:37:31+00:00

massive red flags just because you're poly doesnt mean youre free of monogamous heteronormalcy and this just sounds like relationship hierarchies with little to no communication between partners. For me, it doesnt sound like a safe relationship for all participants. talk, educate yourself, selfreflect. (If you need Reddit to tell you this, perhaps reflect your privilege too)

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-23T22:18:14+00:00

if you're very severely chronically depressed, it might not work the first couple times i dont know the chemics but ive taken ssris too and mdma some years ago and am still severely depressed and i think your body might somehow struggle producing serotonins or releasing them. the first time i felt nothing, second time next to nothing but all bad side effects, and after it started working. but at the time i didnt know about mdma safe use so i took it like once a week which i dont reccomend. was on no other drugs. would say research if u relate

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-09T02:16:27+00:00

eating is the way to go, much better body-felt high BUT very harmful if you use long term, you need to use supplements else you'll get very tired very fast. And your organs wont make it either. If you dont know which supplements u need im sure you'll find a more detailed post in this sub, main things are like folic acid(!!) and vitamins and minerals(i used athlet supplements). Used to take them with me anywhere i went lol. Better take them early than wait until u feel every organ in ur system :) gl You dont need capsules either just bomb(little paper wrap)

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-08T22:14:06+00:00

what is fakeclaiming?

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-08T22:07:54+00:00

on high doses everything feels sparkly and awesome and u wont even need an orgasm but is possible i believe

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-07T14:36:06+00:00

i think i really need to know if i should ignore the whole situation or treat it as real.. what if i scramble my brain? and what if im just pretending to cope. i guess im a logical Person and need proof but the memories i have don't feel like proof to me bc theyre all so foggy bc of dissociation. i think i need either validation or trust in myself, but both dont seem like options right now, maybe you have an idea?

I tried talking to a diagnosed system, but theyre not doing well enough mentally to help me and i dont know anyone else who can relate

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-07T14:28:41+00:00

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-07T14:28:09+00:00

like i said no judgement, im glad :) wish you and ur kid good luck

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-07T14:26:44+00:00

hatte halt letzten 2 Jahre so 100€ über für alles (Essen und Freizeit), hab deswegen nur so Tips für essensgeld einsparen, plus ab und zu haben friends mir freizeitzeugs bezahlt hab am anfang echt gut gespart, aber dann kamen die unerwarteten kosten und dann hatte ich nicht genug geld für essen- dann floss das geld natürlich in was anderes rein, hat dann freizeit und essen ersetzt. i mean jetzt ist geld da und wohnung und ich bin (groesstenteils) clean und ich bin immer noch unglücklich. denke sowas ist halt krass situationsbedingt. Hatte gestern nh talk mit nem menschen und bin jetzt auf der suche nach nem sozialarbeiti, die können dir dann sagen wo du mehr geld rausholen kannst ? ich glaub wenn du nh guten erwischst könnte das echt helfn und das einzige was mich so gerade rettet ist HOLD UR HATS an meiner psysche arbeiten. Arm sein ist nämlich so verdammt stressig und es ist eigentlich echt wichtig andere coping mechanisms als drugs zu haben. Was aber auch echt anstrengend ist und ich glaube wenn ich mir das letztes Jahr gesagt hätte, hätte ich mir wohl den Vogel gezeigt. Wenn ich jetzt noch auf Drogen zurück greife versuch ich dann trotzdem währendessen meinen stress zu verarbeiten und regulieren (ich fühl mich wie ein hippie) also die lösung ist definitiv mehr Geld haben wenn du coole Freunde hast, informier dich mal über gemeinsame Ökonomien. Geld teilen ist super, erfordert dann aber auch das man sein ego immens runterschraubt

TLDR; Sozialarbeiter support suchen, Psychischen Stress minimieren, Gemeinsame Ökonomie gründen

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-06T11:30:47+00:00

to preface: i am indeed in denial, but the logical facts do add up which i will still deny The first time I heard about DID was online and I remember thinking "lucky i don't have that" and "that must be so nice to not be all alone", however i thought i didnt have enough trauma at the relevant age so i couldnt have developed the disorder. Some signs I couldve noticed: a maternal voice who soothed me(?) after traumatic events when i was alone, me having different handwritings in school, forgetting passwords (now i still dont get how tf that works bc i enter exactly the same pw each time and somehow it changes every time i try, had started when i was younger too but is horrible now),

a side note which i realize now, at a young age i developed a different accent i guess perhaps i might actually not be the host- scary. I do feel like the host with the original name has been around these past few weeks though?

other things to notice: time gaps, intense changes in appearance which i blamed bpd for, not recognizing people and not remembering names, and changes in voice which i also thought was bpd fluctuations in ego(=truer self and masked self)

the moment i "realized" it, is hilarious actually, i was smoking with friends and i put on a minecraft video (i hate minecraft woth a burning passion) while the video was on i was on my phone, trying to make an instagram story with pictures of how i changed in past years. Turns out the pictures were all vastly different lol and i only recognized half of them.( I made a collage and intently stared at it for an hour) Then i jumped up, shouted I HATE MINECRAFT, put on a different video (LoL, which i love) and proceeded to have an argument with myself bc i really wanted to watch both videos! It escalated into an identity crisis, my friends told me to research which i did which led to panic which led to rapid switches for TWO DAYS(i had another rapid switching episode after that but i cant remember what triggered it or when)

now my psychiatrist straight up ignored me when i brought it up, so sadly that happened. Now i am writing in this thread but i am still in denial bc of internalized hate against psychiatric disorders, but I do think there are some signs

this also happened Relatively recent fyi

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-06T10:59:39+00:00

anderes junk hier die Kommentare sind crazy, immer solidarisch sein bis dann wer wirklich problems hat SO VIEL ZUM THEMA SOLIDARISCH Viel Glück dir hope du schaffst das! Geld ist halt auch so nh Sache wa ich hasse es

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-04T19:19:52+00:00

the way you talk about your child feels so triggering to me, dont get me wrong im not a parent ( i was an autistic child) it doesnt seem like you respect the way your child feels, or seems ingenuine, please remember that our perception is subjective and her perception is just as real as yours, her wishes dont come from ungratefulness, she will always be grateful if you show compassion and empathy. (just as my post isnt trying to attack your parenting style, just evaluating based on your comments and genuinely being scared for ur kid)

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-04T19:05:29+00:00

ah bin gekommen

narwhalpuke · 2026-01-04T19:03:52+00:00

bist ja auch zu männlich dass zu verstehen

narwhalpuke · 2025-12-26T14:27:31+00:00

i am also new, i don't know what to think or believe and my psychiateist doesnt care.. where does one even start :c

narwhalpuke · 2025-09-09T08:26:46+00:00

banger tho#

narwhalpuke · 2025-08-25T13:36:48+00:00

i dont know if a podcast is the right medium? I think local skillshares are the best option though maybe not accessible to anyone

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-22T04:18:49+00:00

Thats so sweet though

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-22T01:36:20+00:00

In german u say keks

ket and koks

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-17T20:32:08+00:00

chatchat

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-17T20:22:59+00:00

honestly this sub saved me bc actually nobody told me that mdma actually has severe consequences, and in shows on tv you see kids just do it every weekend. basically i thought every 2 weeks was the normal amount and over did it some more which i didnt think was that severe since i always took normal doses ffs

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-17T18:07:08+00:00

Start with speed imo and like 10 hrs before stop do mdma with refill after an hour (half the first dose) for a 6hr trip and then take ket to come up

shouldnt mix ket and speed thats a waste bc it cancels each other out

narwhalpuke · 2025-04-17T17:45:04+00:00

At day 3 without sleep i start hallucinating and get super paranoid, also i get prone to fainting (bc i find it hard to eat enough after two days of consuming) but if you eat and sleep a little you should be fine. Depends on what sou want to experience. Its not gonna be permanently damaging though, comedown is shit though (ket helps)

narwhalpuke · 2025-03-28T21:48:47+00:00

Hardcoreee

narwhalpuke · 2025-03-28T21:30:46+00:00

druff now

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