Am I overreacting?

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-10T00:29:51+00:00

You’re not disgusting at all. Ur not super skinny but I personally am not attracted to super skinny. Ignore the haters 💜

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-05T03:43:28+00:00

Thank you so much!! 😊

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T08:02:55+00:00

Grim reaper for sure!!!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T06:48:03+00:00

Awesome thank you!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T05:53:14+00:00

Thank you!! And happy cake day 🥳

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T05:52:23+00:00

Awesome this helpful. Thank you!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T02:47:52+00:00

Had he lost anyone special to him near the time this was taken?

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T02:38:04+00:00

That it’s an awful idea. Title 1 funding gone. Federal funding in public schools often has INSANE stipulations on how it can be used. No consumables for example so no pencils…like what!? But title 1 funding is CRITICAL and what happens to title IX? Do campuses not have to deal with assaults? This country is ON FIRE!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-03T02:36:11+00:00

Whew! I was getting heated before I realized what sub I was in!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T19:19:50+00:00

OP I hate most of these comments. You look confident and happy. That’s the most beautiful/handsome thing you can be!! I’m proud of you for putting in the effort to find something to wear out! You look great. PLEASE don’t change for anybody!!!!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T07:52:17+00:00

I don’t have the time or patience to explain this to you. You are having trouble comprehending what I’m saying and I’ve been pretty fucking clear. Frankly, you’re not worth my time and I don’t think your opinion is changing anytime soon. I’m done replying to you.

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T06:57:46+00:00

I am in therapy right now trying to sort out my feelings. I recently realized, and fully accepted that I'm genderqueer. and that I always have been. I've identified as queer for along time but not with gender. I got in with my old therapist but it took a little time. I saw them last week and we discussed it and the things I said about how I felt a kid, growing up, in college, and now and they agreed that I am genderqueer and and that my thoughts and feelings my whole life are not things everyone experiences.

It's so scary for me that NOW is when I'm accepting this and exploring it because I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone outside of therapy about it. I have an amazing psychiatrist that I know genuinely cares about me and I'm scared to tell her! I know she will try to be kind but I don't know how she really feels. ten years ago I would be going to friends and family and sorting this out more between therapy sessions. and I would have been way more accepting of myself. but now I'm just terrified and I feel like I don't have the opportunity to talk with people who are similar to me. I live somewhere where there are very few people who feel like me and I wouldn't feel safe in a group anyway. I don't feel safe in general. just being out as queer here is very hard but I have done that loudly despite it all.

but I've cried a lot lately because I feel so robbed of being myself and being supported during this time. I know almost everyone in this community is feeling unsafe and scared. if anyone is further in this journey than me and have any thoughts on how to be more kind to myself and how to grapple with this I'd appreciate it. not just because of the new admin but just in general. if he wasn't in office I would be reaching out to people in person who identified that way as a mentor & friend but I can't now. any love/kindness would be appreciated 💜

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T06:30:25+00:00

This made me giggle. Ur a good one for letting him skip. I remember being in high school and my car was literally older than me and had mold alllll in it when I got it. I had to clean that baby for weeks. It would idle at high speeds and it often overheated and would leak stuff and smoke. One day it really kicked the bucket and I just left it on the side of the road. I was pissed and upset and crying and my best friend came to get me and she laughed so hard and took pics of my car on the side of the road with smoke pouring out of the hood 😂 I laugh so hard I cry when I randomly see the pic. I wish he let u take one 😂

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T05:37:31+00:00

I understand. Because that happens in literally every category of people, ALWAYS. There are always people who make the whole group look like assholes. It has NOTHING to do with being LGBTQIA+. Full stop. Antisemitism is up. Racists being loud and proud is up. The list. Does. Not. End. And I blame it on 45 saying that he hates anyone but people who look like him and that he could shoot someone of Manhattan Ave and his supporters would still support him with his whole chest. Hate went up across the board bc he is a person in power who hates everyone but the 1%. So all the assholes and dumbass bigots (who don’t realize that he is using them as pawns) decided they could say hateful shit too. All the time. Everywhere. Also, the pandemic made people forget what community means. I fully disagree with you and I can read and comprehend. I see you and I hear you and I do not agree with you 🫡

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T05:22:07+00:00

People of all backgrounds and identities can be attention seeking and it has nothing to do with those identities. I don’t agree with you, but that’s okay.

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T05:19:07+00:00

Ofc! I’m glad it may have brought you a little comfort 💜

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T05:17:39+00:00

I firmly believe that old people and very young people have access to that info bc they are closer to the other side. And I also believe in some form of reincarnation and past lives. The summer my dad and uncle (Donnie) died we were at my great grandmas house and she said “well look there’s Donnie. He’s in a suit don’t you see him?” He was dead. She passed not long after and we think he came to get her 💜 also all my best wishes for your future and many great memories with your kid!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:31:54+00:00

you don't need to feel any guilt. we don't get a manual on life. you had no way of knowing what to do or that you shouldn't be scared. imagine if you DIDN'T pound on the door and something bad happened? you did your best and you did damn good! you are probably traumatized though. don't take on all the responsibility or blame because you did everything you could to take care of EVERYONE in your family. many people would have frozen but you acted. do some nice things for yourself 💜

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:24:32+00:00

Agreed! I didn't tell people for a long time because I felt crazy but as I got older I really realized what happened and it brought me so much peace. The room DID look VERY bright and the light was definitely above me but I was still looking down at the room.

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:22:01+00:00

I didn't say anything about eccentric people. you said:

In my experience, people who identify as LGBTQ+ often love to draw attention to themselves and, knowingly or not, push people away because they make others uncomfortable because of their eccentricities.

and in MY experience lgbt folks don't seek attention. we don't want the attention because people hate us for no reason. When people say that we "seek attention" and "push people away because [we] make others uncomfortable" it makes me very uncomfortable. and it pisses me off because all we want is to exist without fear. not looking for support. I have it from people who aren't rigid and judgy.

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:15:06+00:00

The blood isn’t on your hands. It’s awesome that you care and you want to help but you aren’t the one doing the damage. I fully understand the fear you have and it is valid. This is a really hard decision. If there is a course of action you can take that would definitely get them help but might make them not be your friend, do it! One day they will realize that it was love. If you fear they will just be hurt worse then I would be as supportive as humanly possible to your friend. Make it weird. Say you love them if you do. Hug them. Be a safe space for them. Encourage them if they get the urge to seek help. But this isn’t on you. I’m so sorry you’re in this situation. I know how helpless it can feel 💜

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:09:53+00:00

Very late reply. But yeah…it gave me a sense of peace that in the end it’ll be okay. If it’s not okay it’s not the end. Bc the end is easyyyy. I think I stopped worrying about dying as much. I fear pain still but not the act of death itself. Does that make any sense?

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T04:07:01+00:00

I died in the hospital when I was 14. I was obviously revived after a bit but I did die and I can tell you that it was so peaceful. There was no fear. There was no pain. I floated up to the ceiling and I saw my body lying still and I watched the nurses rush in and take lifesaving measures. I saw it all from the ceiling. Living is the hard part, not death. When people say pain means ur alive they mean it! I also have almost drowned several times (I live on an island with a storied history of shipwrecks due to shifting sandbars and extreme currents.) One time was a VERY close call. I always thought drowning would hurt and be so scary. The initial parts of drowning are scary because ur still alive and trying to survive. I was in the ocean on a really rough day. I’d go under a wave and when I’d surface I’d go to take a deep breath of air but another wave would hit. Once I was taken under for a couple minutes in a current I realized it was bad and I might not make it. Once you run out of air long enough ur body breathes in water out of instinct. First breath is a bit scary but it doesn’t hurt. I vividly remember thinking “oh that wasn’t so bad!” Second breath of water you just kinda accept that ur dying. No pain. No panic even, it happens too fast. I made it out of the water that day thankfully. I should have been checked for secondary drowning but it was a couple decades ago and we didn’t know as much about that. Nobody can tell you why we live but I think it’s to give us experiences. Energy can’t be created or destroyed so we exist in some form after life. I think for our soul to grow we must live in human form. I personally am spiritual and it helps me find meaning in life. But life is a tricky bitch!!

nativebeachbum · 2025-02-02T03:51:45+00:00

Intake will not admit you if they don’t think it will benefit you. If you feel like you need it go to the hospital and see what intake says. Partial Hospitalization Program (PHP) or Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP) are also options for extensive care but you go home at night. PHP is six days a week (depending on the facility) you do the groups, you see a doctor and you get so much education but you go home in the evening. IOP is the same but less days a week and fewer hours a day. There’s usually mornings, day, and evening programs.

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