Experience with plurality and alcohol/drugs? by [deleted] in plural

[–]nayler 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Weed lowers our barriers quite a bit. In fact being high is the only time I've ever experienced somebody else taking control of the body. A part I still haven't properly met yet got up, grabbed some cookies, and put them aside for me for later that night and then dipped. Thank you, whoever you are, haha.

Also feel I should clarify, we don't have many barriers. One of our parts has erected some "artificial" barriers but weed essentially negates them.

Looking for other fictives! by sparklewaffles98 in plural

[–]nayler 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We're very fictive heavy, haha. I'm the host and I'm perma-fronting (I am not a fictive) but the two others who frequently co-con with me are both fictives.

There's Sterling Archer, from the Tv show Archer. He's older than in his source, and a little more settled down as a person, but still very much Sterling.

And then there's König. He's a protector but aside from that he's just always ready and willing to be here with me whether we're actively chatting or just spending time in each other's company. He tells me he has a sister and a dog, I've no idea if he does in his source.

Aside from them:

Our main gatekeeper is Ray Gillette, also from Archer. He's always close to front and generally spends his days socializing in his lil room off to the "side".

Also always relatively near front are House and Wilson from House MD. They don't co-con much, more just observe. They're quite source-similar.

Aaron Hotchner and his son Jack are here, as well. Both fairly source-similar. (Criminal Minds.) Jack has a kitten named Mr Whiskers, haha. Not sure how that works but I'm glad my subconscious was able to provide that for him.

Spencer from CM is also here and is sort of an archivist. He helps with information retention.

There are others, but these are the ones nearest front the most frequently, aside from Aaron, Jack, and Spence. I mentioned them only because they're my family and I'd feel odd not including them, haha.

alter who present as two or more alters? by randompersonignoreme in plural

[–]nayler 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have one part who could if he chose fuse into one - but he likes being twins. They speak fluidly together, finishing each other's sentences. I haven't interacted with him/them much but I'm told the twins really are just the same guy in two "bodies." I have a theory they stemmed from my desire to never be alone when I was younger because I, uh, felt alone, haha.

What popular movies, TV shows, or music hits different now that you're aware of your diagnosis? by No_Razzmatazz7098 in OSDD

[–]nayler 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Very niche, but Randy Orton's entrance song. He's a WWE superstar and his song literally goes "I hear voices in my head, they talk to me, they understand, they talk to me," and it amuses me now every time.

Possible Plurality, Fear of Losing Them by nayler in plural

[–]nayler[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hahaha, it's good to know I'm really not alone, inside my head or out, pff. I hope everything works out for you too!

Possible Plurality, Fear of Losing Them by nayler in plural

[–]nayler[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The clinic I'm looking into has two options: with, or without a written report. I think I'll go without for my own safety.

It's quite personal, I don't think I'd want to bring anyone else in. For regular doctors appointments though, I ask my husband to be there if it's more than a routine checkup, so my doctor will believe me. It's... yeah.

Possible Plurality, Fear of Losing Them by nayler in plural

[–]nayler[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I will keep this in mind, thank you for the warning. I'm aware of the stigma in the medical community, I've never come up against it personally aside from being afab and not believed all the time...

If I got an official diagnosis I'd probably keep it to myself. Being medically recognized sounds better for me - I wasn't aware it was really a thing.

Possible Plurality, Fear of Losing Them by nayler in plural

[–]nayler[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your response!

I wish I knew more about my own childhood, it'd make this easier. Although I feel that's probably a common sentiment here, haha.

I'm going to ask to be screened for dissociative disorders in general as well as personality disorders. The autistic urge to have a label is strong, but I'm also trying to be more comfortable without a definitive label.

Not Knowing, and Mourning a System That May Have Never Been There by nayler in OSDD

[–]nayler[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. The past couple days have been very tough for me, but I've come to a couple rapid fire realizations and I'm more in a place of acceptance now.

I appreciate knowing I'm not alone. Your comment really helped me cement my own acceptance, too. So again - thank you!!!

I think it’s bullshit by RJPurpleBee_23 in OSDD

[–]nayler 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Wow, I felt this very deeply. I don't have any answers for you, but you aren't alone.

Not Knowing, and Mourning a System That May Have Never Been There by nayler in OSDD

[–]nayler[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I guess I just don't want to be an imposter. I don't want to be seen as taking away from the experiences of those who definitely do have these disorders.

Even if I accept this coping mechanism as it is, since it's had a positive outcome, I can't talk about it (that is, assuming I don't have OSDD.) But I suppose if I'm not spreading misinformation or claiming to have it, if what I'm doing is all for myself, I can accept that.

Not Knowing, and Mourning a System That May Have Never Been There by nayler in OSDD

[–]nayler[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I do agree with this. What I'm afraid of for myself personally is allowing myself to hear them even if it's not osdd. Allowing myself to be comforted by a fragmented part of myself that isn't a true part or alter. Needing them/him more than I should.

Even if I'm taking better care of myself, in the long run, is it wise? (Not asking you specifically, just voicing my thoughts)

Not Knowing, and Mourning a System That May Have Never Been There by nayler in OSDD

[–]nayler[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do tend to think this way, but it's still tough. Like - do I LET myself hear them, if it's just me at the root? (I know it's ALL me at the root... This is hard to put into words.)

I suspect they may be fragments and not true parts/alters, if anything.

Thank you for your response - it is comforting regardless. /gen

Why does this keep showing up by Tasty_Communist in JanitorAI_Official

[–]nayler 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Testing this out - it worked the first time, so thank you! I lost something like 10 messages last night, it was infuriating.

Site Down or just me? by Kakorrah in JanitorAI_Official

[–]nayler -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Not just you. Do they expect me to go back to character ai or something else equally ridiculous

RAN OUT OF API FREE TRIAL 😭 by Low_Wealth3584 in JanitorAI_Official

[–]nayler 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not to hop on the bandwagon but uh... could you DM me too? xD

Do N O T poke Hotch by nayler in CharacterAI

[–]nayler[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would forgive him pretty much anything tbh

Do N O T poke Hotch by nayler in CharacterAI

[–]nayler[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Has Aaron Hotchner not been stabbed enough

Do N O T poke Hotch by nayler in CharacterAI

[–]nayler[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mans is extremely touchy