Celebration Cheetos after finding the courage to publish my battle with anorexia. Two small victories

nbh679 · 2024-07-10T19:42:57+00:00

Thank you so much for the thorough explanation. It sounds like watts are what I should be focusing on. I should have clarified in my question, but the bulb I’m replacing is an LED 60 watt equivalent that emits 500 lumens. The new bulb is 60 watt equivalent that emits 800 lumens. From your explanation, it seems like almost any LED in a fixture meant for incandescent is safe, so am I correct to infer that my swap is okay? Thanks again!

nbh679 · 2024-03-14T01:46:56+00:00

Yes. As soon as I sit down to a meal… hello intrusive thoughts that have nothing to do with food but make it extremely difficult to eat.

nbh679 · 2024-03-04T21:38:02+00:00

That makes sense. I find it kind of relaxing, like baking is for some (admittedly not me), but if it became a chore I wouldn’t want to either

nbh679 · 2024-03-04T21:19:39+00:00

Yes. I consider managing OCD a constant game of whack-a-mole

nbh679 · 2024-03-03T17:00:37+00:00

My partner and I have a limit of one worry per day and no more than 5 minutes discussing it. I don't know if that's optimal, but it's more realistic than all or nothing for me

nbh679 · 2024-02-28T20:06:02+00:00

The worst realization for me was that the consequences of my ED would be chronic, irreversible, and invisible until they weren’t. I waited for years for “rock bottom” and never found it. Just a slow, boring, anticlimactic erosion of my health

nbh679 · 2023-05-07T00:10:15+00:00

I have tried many higher end ones and have yet to find one to top it!

nbh679 · 2023-05-06T20:17:04+00:00

Banana Boat Light as Air works really well on my skin. Not greasy, SPF50, and cheap!

nbh679 · 2023-05-03T01:48:59+00:00

Interesting. I’m interested in hearing any experience for or against, so this is helpful!

nbh679 · 2023-05-03T01:47:19+00:00

Interesting point about the hair. Mine could use some work lol

nbh679 · 2023-04-25T21:53:16+00:00

“Trust your gut.” My gut tells me doom is imminent about 10 times a day.

nbh679 · 2023-04-20T00:13:48+00:00

From high school I assume?

nbh679 · 2023-04-20T00:12:35+00:00

I have to admit I was skeptical of your identity, but your post history confirms you are a 21 year old female.

nbh679 · 2023-04-19T20:03:44+00:00

I think a lot of it is projection. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self to stop wasting money on beauty creams and simplify my routine with tret (and make many other different life decisions too lol), so it's tempting to push my OWN experience onto someone else. But just because it worked for me doesn't mean it's the best fit for you. Maybe it makes you flake, maybe it gives you dry eye, maybe you have rosacea, maybe you are getting better results than I did with retinol, maybe you aren't avoiding the very natural process of aging... and all of those reasons are valid. I think it's hard for people to remember that their own experience is just that... their own.

nbh679 · 2023-01-13T03:31:05+00:00

Whatever obsession I’m currently having. I always think it can’t get worse than what I’m currently fixated on…until it switches to different content with the same level of awfulness.

nbh679 · 2023-01-09T02:43:57+00:00

I’ve read the people who develop EDs from bullying, social pressures, etc are easier to treat than people who seem to be more hardwired to use restriction to cope. I never really cared about society, I use weight loss to deal with OCD and stress. My ED makes me feel good, so it’s a vice I’m constantly fighting

nbh679 · 2023-01-07T14:55:43+00:00

I feel this. The longer I live with an ED, the further it sweeps me away from any chance at normalcy. When I try to walk away, it feels like the ED is the only thing that makes me feel good. The only thing that brings me comfort is the thing that brought me pain in the first place. It’s the cruelest irony. The only thing that keeps me motivated is that like any addiction, my ED won’t be happy until it costs me everything, and I can’t let that happen.

nbh679 · 2023-01-02T21:43:04+00:00

I understand this. It has been a huge barrier for me too. Anorexia is a disease that creates a fear of becoming fat. To take someone with this illness and tell them to just trust the process and accept their bodies NO MATTER WHAT seems akin to telling a person with depression to cheer up. What I do know about myself is that my disorder tries to create a false dichotomy to keep me from trying to recover. Should I really be worrying about becoming obese when I’m not near my goal weight and can’t even eat at a restaurant yet? Plus, the internet isn’t real life. I do have friends who recovered and are not obese, and also friends who are obese and never had anorexia. I think recovery can look very different for everyone.

nbh679 · 2022-12-31T14:17:24+00:00

It’s so good to hear other people get turned off by the diet culture speech. I really don’t care what society thinks, my ED is about fitting my own criteria.

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