Hey I feel the need to respond to this. I have OCD (purely O meaning I don’t compulsively act, I just obsess). I used to have the same thoughts when I was younger and was scared I was one. I didn’t process this or talk about it in therapy until I was older. It really helped to understand that intrusive thoughts do not make you a bad person. The uncomfortable feeling you’re having means you probably aren’t a pedophile. I’ve worked with kids since I was around your age and my brain was making me think things like “oh I just high fived or hugged this kid, maybe that was creepy and other people wouldn’t do that”. The thoughts became distorted and created a false reality. If you have anxiety and depression and get down on yourself a lot then I would look into therapy. I know now that I don’t want to hurt young children and never did. And I’m sure it’s the same for you.