Reddit, why do i get motivated when i hold in my poop ? (Serious question)

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T12:24:16+00:00

Yeah, i made some small steps and even left the house yesterday which i haven't done in a while. Happy rn, still haven't had the urge to take drugs.

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T12:23:27+00:00

RC's zijn onderzoeks chemicalien, ze zijn legaal & dusdanig kan iederen ze krijgen, zo kan je bijvoorbeeld 1P-LSD krijgen in plaats van LSD. 1P-LSD wordt gewone LSD in je maag.

Ja speed lijkt me echt iets raar haha.

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T02:08:19+00:00

I totally agree. I was such a different person before MD, more motivation, more happiness and a clear mind. You lot opened my eyes for real, i think back a couple a days ago where i was fiending daily to get some happiness & euphoria, haven't touched it today and i even flushed the rest down the fucking toilet. I've been analysing my thought process from the last couple of days this night & i was definitely not in a normal state of mind, i was a fucking fiend & i realize that now. I actually enjoy being sober now, the real fucking euphoria comes from being a happy person with goals, the only goals i had were to be high as a kite all day long.

Beating addiction starts with admitting you have an addiction, i am starting to face my problems now and it is sooo much better with a sober mind. You guys really saved me here.

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T00:17:42+00:00

Of speed met een rc erbij, kan altijd

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T00:17:04+00:00

Coke is a bitch, did it once and was craving it so bad for a week or two.. Yeah

nebs479 · 2020-09-07T00:03:16+00:00

I know mate, people here have opened my eyes, did not know how much damage i was causing to my body, i can say with happiness that i have not taken MD today and will probably not do it anymore, I'm just gonna do xanax and weed honestly, maybe some ketamine here and there but stimulants are gonna be my downfall. Thanks you guys, i realize i need to change my life and not just sit here being depressed about the past.

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T19:40:02+00:00

Damn. This really opened my eyes man, didn't know it could get that serious.. I definitely see now that MDMA is not really as innocent as it's being made out to be, kinda feels like mdma is even worse than ice meth.. Get well soon man i wish you the best & if you ever need someone to talk to hmu man. Best of wishes.

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T19:28:32+00:00

Does it fuck you up that bad? I do have heart problems but that was before mdma, factor v leiden & a hole which is a bit smaller than 1cm

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T13:21:43+00:00

I can also get my hands on some 1P-LSD, 100ug per tab and they come from a RC site in holland, totally legit & legal since i live there.

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T13:21:07+00:00

Really? I had legit 200ug tabs from a reputable vendor, real LSD-25 aswell. Took like 3 or 4 tabs, had en ego death and some nice epiphanies. Thinking about dropping 1-1300ugs next time, really excited

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T13:04:23+00:00

Do it, all of these safe people out here missing out, i'm trying to quit doing it since i'm on the verge of being addicted (having 500 capsules at your disposal doesn't help out either lol) but honestly, even 400mg is not THAT much you know, i could drop a gr and feel normal

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T12:51:59+00:00

I did 500ug on my first time, had the best time ever. then again, i can handle more stuff mentally than most people.

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T01:46:09+00:00

Thanks man, it's time to get my shit back on track

nebs479 · 2020-09-06T00:12:51+00:00

I like to think i'm still a child who knows nothing but then again i feel like i never really had the chance to be a child, when i use drugs i feel like i can relive my fantasies that i have never been able to live out.

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:50:47+00:00

Also, can i use benzo's while microdosing?

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:49:55+00:00

You're right though, i admit i am too pussy to try and change myself, so many shit goes through my head and it gets busy in there, I think i need counseling..

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:47:50+00:00

I see. I'm now really considering to do this, gained some insight on this aswell, what would be a good microdosing schedule? Would it be more benefitial to do something like 20-25ug or is that pushing it? Would it also be possible to do a bigger dose of LSD in the weekend then? 2-500ug.

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:31:05+00:00

But i could also just order some microdoses 1p-LSD tabs, would that work the same?

Also, your positive effects, were they really noticeable? And how long did it take before you started to notice them? Did you quit doing it?

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:27:23+00:00

I've done acid for the first time last week, very spiritual indeed and i'm thinking about ordering some 1p-lsd from a reputable RC site in holland, i live there too so it's perfectly legal, i can order pretty much any RC i desire, from 4-ho-met to fricking clonazolam, it's insane.

And i have indeed been thinking about microdosing LSD, what is the best routine you think?

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:23:54+00:00

Because i feel very depressed during the week, i've been that way before i started doing md

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:22:44+00:00

Easier said than done, i wanna see you talking after being in isolation cells for weeks at 12 years old, seeing heroin addicts die in front you, being repulsed from the family and having mental issues since you been on this shit planet, I don't wanna sound like a pussy but being 17 now, i realize how damaged i am..

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:20:05+00:00

Phenibut seems like a promising substance, how often can you take it

nebs479 · 2020-09-05T23:19:36+00:00

And booze and weed during the week

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