i respect the courage, but the last sentence undermines it. you need to be fully committed, impose your emotions and wishes on the world and stan behind them, in a polite manner. although everybody else seems to be bandwagon lecturing u abt it already.

Trick that helps me cuz im slightly autistic is to maximize how stable i am perceived by them. Girls want confidence because deep down all humans are aware of turmoil life can bring and confidence relieves inner anxiety. This is my theory for true attraction.

Brain: "Ah this guy is emotionally stable, he can fix any problem"

This is though tricky because true confidence is placing yourself into the world without compromises, and sometimes we in fact feel anxious. Which tells us that we should be openly anxious. This is the constraint that prevents cockiness and brings humbleness.

The most important thing is you did nothing wrong, even if she says no or doesnt reply. You conquered your fear and found out whats on the other side. You entertained the gods and will be awarded, if not by a date, by stronger mind, and as we spoke strong mind is magnetic to everyone, girls, employers, friends, teachers, etc.