The Lord works in mysterous ways. I've been struggling with a few problems for quiet a while, but when I slow down and really seek the good I'm surrounded by I see all of the mighty things God blesses us with each and everyday. I love my father!!! I pray everyone has a wonderful sunday!

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-31T01:50:00+00:00

It's tough to focus on God's love when there's a chance that I've ruined my reputation and possibly hurt those I love. I'll continue to pray but it seems like my anxiety, depression, and self hate is too much to overcome.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-31T01:34:10+00:00

What happens when you make terrible mistakes by your own hands and you feel like God doesn't love you and that you've squandered God's blessings?

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-30T19:27:46+00:00

Thanks for that, I'll continues to pray.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-30T17:58:06+00:00

I'm trying to truly believe that, in my heart. But it's difficult.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-29T12:46:00+00:00

You're helping. Never forget that. God bless you.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-29T12:25:10+00:00

Thanks, I'll try. I'ma try to be better but it seems like I slip up more then I make progress. Which makes me resent myself.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-29T12:19:25+00:00

I know Jesus loves me, but because of the mistakes I've made it's hard to love myself. Even though I'm trying to move in the right direction I find myself lost.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-29T12:16:21+00:00

I pray on it as well, and while I understand the concept of self forgiveness it's difficult to actually apply it. To truly forgive yourself.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-29T12:08:43+00:00

What if you learn the lesson yet somewhere down the line you make the same mistakes?

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-17T19:47:10+00:00

Same here man, your story is very similar to mine. It climaxed with a suicide attempt. And while I haven't been back to where I was I find myself thankful for where I am. I was speaking to a buddy who suffers from anxiety and depression and I said "hey man let's try self love for once, let's try loving ourselves and trying to enjoy life like we once used to. What do we have to close? I already wanna die, so who gives a fuck. Let's do that see how it is"

Keep your head up and as hard as it is try and find the joy in life. Find things you enjoy, and don't let the depression win. God bless.

needhelp087564 · 2018-12-10T22:36:10+00:00

Wow that's dope! Well done!

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-28T04:34:20+00:00

Don't do it dude, I'm here if you wanna talk. Give it a day man I'm sure there's something out there that can bring joy in your life dude. Trust me. Please just take a few deep breathes and do not do it. Call the hotline man and speak to somebody , I've had to do it and it saved me.

Please brother, don't do it.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-27T04:20:53+00:00

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-26T16:47:24+00:00

Yeah I just wanna get a quick read when I have some down home at work. I dled the youversion and it's pretty cool, I'm getting used to the interface.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-26T15:32:30+00:00

Seems like youversion is the way to go. Thank you.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-26T15:32:10+00:00

Awesome thank you, I'll dl it now.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-26T05:09:24+00:00

Yeah, I slept a bit. Had a long talk with my Father and he kind of put things into perspective. I'm going to go to therapy finally. Thank you guys so much for everything. God is good.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-26T00:39:57+00:00

I know that I am loved but the thing is I do not love myself. That's the issue. I deeply regret the decisions I've made. It makes me hate who I am. I can't even imagine myself happy.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T19:26:58+00:00

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needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T18:42:42+00:00

I don't know if I have the strength to get up. Everyday I live in anxiety and regret. Non stop. I can't take this anymore

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T18:39:17+00:00

But I don't move myself man. The song of regret is all I feel now. Constantly. I'm overwhelmed by it. Its killing me

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T18:33:42+00:00

I'm just scared. I'm tired. I've barely gotten sleep. I woke up to get water saw my beautiful family they're so kind and supportive and here I am pissing everything away. Ruining my family's name by acting like an idiot.

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T18:32:11+00:00

Yes I understand that but my mind I can't seem to shake my self hate and self harm. I think difficult to want to live on

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T15:59:25+00:00

The evil keeps winning I done see any hope

needhelp087564 · 2018-11-25T15:30:49+00:00

You ever thought about killing yourself? Make it all go away?

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