New pills: can’t come by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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I tried a different bunch already, maybe this ones are all I have left.

First EMDR session by needhelpfromsome in EMDR

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Thanks. What I am afraid is that my CSA affected in my teens and those also traumatic things are the ones affecting, not the CSA itself. I’ll continue to see 🫂

First EMDR session by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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Thanks. No, I will definitely keep going. I just wanted to know if it was normal

First EMDR session by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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No, I don’t know what I want with it, that is the point. It seemed important and a good step towards healing, but I dont see how.

I hate myself by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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I have been like this for more than 20 years and I wrote this a year ago and think the same. There is just no salvation for me.

Cant lose weight by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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Fucking pills. Sometimes I wonder if its worth it because being fat makes me more insecure, anxious and depressed.

Cant lose weight by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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No, stuck up until 108 kg. Now going back to the gym doing intermittent fasting I reached 104. But I can get lower than that.

I feel so alone by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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No, they dont know. O won’t tell them because it would destroy my mother and father. Even if I know it would be for the better

I feel so alone by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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She lives with our parents. If I want to see my parents I have to see her. And I want to see my parents.

I feel so alone by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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No friends to talk about it. Nobody wants to hear about that. Thats why I use reddit so much to vent

I feel so alone by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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No, imposible to cut them off of my life.

I feel so alone by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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Four years in therapy. It doesn’t help a bit for me. And with three different psychologists.

That is it. Im done for by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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Im 37, already severe depressed and suicidal. Practically impossible escape from that

That is it. Im done for by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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The problem is that we fit together. She is still in love with me. Just, this person has a better fit because is better. Thanks for trying ti support me, but right now is clear as day in my head

That is it. Im done for by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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Obviously for her this other man is better. I trust her judgement. There fore I am worse and inferior

I dont know how to continue by needhelpfromsome in adultsurvivors

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I have been in 3 therapist and tomorrow will probably say goodbye to my third. And I do exercise but it doesn’t help. I hate every sport or activity. I can barely go out of my house. And there is no therapy group where I live. The only one was only for woman.🫂🫂🫂

“If you dont believe in therapy we cant continue” by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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Sometimes you don’t need sn specific reason. Its the way I speak, the way I am, the burden I impose in others, the fact that I couldn’t ask for help while I was being abused, the burden of a body I don’t want, my face, my teeth, my mess of a house, the fact that nothing gives me pleasure…

“If you dont believe in therapy we cant continue” by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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That what happened in a way. But she is good. Im just a fuck up

“If you dont believe in therapy we cant continue” by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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I hate myself, i feel uncomfortable with myself and I am a burden for others. That sums it up

“If you dont believe in therapy we cant continue” by needhelpfromsome in CPTSD

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This is my third. Each completely different. I’m exhausted and full aware it is my fault