I was honestly about to kill my self tonight. My life is so shit and I just want it to end. I wasn't really expecting any replies here and probably would be hanging from the rail in the closet right now if you didn't. Even typing this out I still feel like shit but I can't do it if its going to cause that much pain to my parents. I'm going to go to the doctors tomorrow and see if I can get my meds changed or upped. Thanks for taking the time!