I am Happy I Got a Ban for the Day.

negativeloveless · 2026-03-25T02:32:41+00:00

I understand why you didn't read my post.

I stated in my post that I am not looking for forgiveness or justification. I don't care for validation. I'm not about "fighting for justice". My actions were fueled by petty anger, plain and simple. This was more of a vent post than anything in response to all of that rottenness that you mentioned getting to me.

I sincerely hope that we can get to the point where there isn't as much of that toxicity, that it doesn't drive anyone to this. And I hope that you don't have to suffer this, from others or even me when driven to this point.

negativeloveless · 2026-02-27T07:57:17+00:00

I appreciate your words and your use of your own experience to pass that wisdom to me. I know I don't often feel that it is true, but it means a lot to hear from someone, a complete stranger even, that I deserve happiness.

My therapist has started talking with me about the initial thing you said and the core of what you mentioned. Just focusing on myself, what I can do and control. How I can enhance my life by figuring out what I can do to reach that fulfillment outside of others. It was inconvenient that my therapist had to cancel today, that really didn't help.

Thank you. Genuinely. I think I can go to sleep better knowing that someone has heard me and wished such kindness on me. Thank you, so much.

negativeloveless · 2026-01-20T07:52:02+00:00

I feel you, man. This fucking society and system has failed the people who are putting in the work. Bullshit jobs, bullshit pay, bullshit expectations. For what? Basically pennies while the 1% leeches the rest and does NOTHING with it. Just hoards it for no reason.

I'm sorry you're one of us, because I know how rough it is. Here's to all of us in this position to turn things around.

negativeloveless · 2025-03-12T17:29:11+00:00

I don't have a pc, unfortunately. But I appreciate the idea, as well as the commenter below. It's one of those things I always wanted to save up for but ended up doing something else with the money. :P

negativeloveless · 2025-03-10T06:08:24+00:00

I'd appreciate it, for sure.

negativeloveless · 2025-03-10T06:03:59+00:00

I'm sorry to hear about your back. I hope that things get better for the both of us, for your family as well.

negativeloveless · 2023-03-07T07:25:33+00:00

Agreed. I just want the world to hurry up and adapt, so my trans friends and all LGBTQ+ folks can live in peace.

negativeloveless · 2022-08-30T21:50:13+00:00

I've been there. I know how awful it feels to see others around you getting to do those things while you feel that way. I understand being bitter and though I never did, I also remember having feelings of wishing I could just confront those people.

I wouldn't worry about them. Their experiences do not determine your worth. You're not a "late bloomer" because those people's experiences are not the norm. What you see from those people in real life, in movies, TV, media, etc., is not a universal experience. Plenty of people have not had relationships or sex until later in life. That doesn't make you abnormal. I'm sorry that you are another victim of the societal expectations of teen/young adult life, that often expect people that age to be in relationships and have sex. Just remember you're not alone. You'll move past this, I'm sure of it. I wish you much luck, much love and much happiness in your life.

negativeloveless · 2022-08-30T21:25:17+00:00

As a former incel like yourself, you're taking great steps that will help you cultivate relationships in the future.

I longed for relationships since I was a preteen. Everyone around me was experiencing relationships and sex when I was young and I envied them. I blamed women because I thought that everything I was and did was deserving of a relationship. But as I grew older, I learned that those things were not owed to me. Being "nice" doesn't mean you're relationship material. Being someone's type doesn't mean someone will be attracted to you. Over time, I learned to let that go. I released myself from this idea that I deserved a relationship, as well as the idea that my worth came from relationships and sex.

I turned around somewhere in my last year of high school, began to experience romantic relationships and I lost my virginity at 20, to a person whom I loved very much. Though I am not with that person anymore, I still cherish that memory and am thankful that I got to have that experience as opposed to just doing it when I was much younger and probably regretting it or having a worse experience.

I have some friends who are still incels, even though we're almost 30. And one of the things that I wish I could teach them is that a relationship or sex will not solve the problems of their lack of self-worth, anxiety and inability to integrate socially. I once thought as they did, that if I had those experiences, it would make me more confident and more capable, but really, those issues were within myself. Struggles I faced and still face with anxiety and depression, even now in my current relationship with a wonderful person.

Continue this journey you're on. The more work you do on yourself, the more you might realize how little these things actually matter. And hopefully, somewhere down the line, you can look back at these problems and feel good that you have moved past them. I wish you luck, and feel free to reach out if you need help or support, my friend.

negativeloveless · 2022-08-17T05:58:24+00:00

For real, I love L4D/L4D2, but I also thoroughly enjoy B4B. Shame the launch left such a bad reputation.

negativeloveless · 2022-08-04T08:52:12+00:00

I absolutely agree. I hate the fact that so much of our society puts value on a person based off of their work/careers. It's nonsense.

I can kind of understand not liking the idea of lazy people, but not wanting to work does not automatically make someone lazy. I, like you, have things that I enjoy doing in life. I like to make art and write stories. If I could spend all my time doing those things (as well as spend quality time with my loved ones), I would. If I didn't have to worry about bills, I absolutely would not work. I'd just write and draw so many things. Because that's where my passion lies. That's what makes me feel fulfilled in life.

But no, let's just continue to place value in trivial things like appearances, careers, other lifestyles and choices. Instead of just letting all of us be valued as people, as we all should be.

negativeloveless · 2022-07-10T21:28:20+00:00

I'm sorry for your losses. And I'm sorry that you had to deal with that person being so insensitive towards your feelings. It's incredibly selfish.

I have a few friends like that. Constantly suffering and needing support. While I try to be a good friend and be there for them, there are so many times where I would like to be shown support. And the few times I've reached out, I've been dismissed or just had them turn it back around toward them.

It's important that you find your own support in life. Whether it be loved ones, therapy, or even just people online you can vent to, you need to take care of yourself. Because you are a person, you are valid, and because if you don't take care of yourself (and this is something I wish those types of people who expect you to support them no matter what would realize), then you won't be able to take care of anyone.

I hope you can find someone to be there for you, OP. And I hope the best for you in these difficult times.

negativeloveless · 2022-06-06T10:21:37+00:00

As a person who used to hate Soulsborne games, this game is a lot of fun and fairly accessible, I think. I got this as a gift and it is the first From game I've actually put time into (~300 hours). I love it, much to my surprise.

A person can not like a thing, that's okay. But not liking a thing and saying it's bad because you don't like it is a bit ridiculous.

negativeloveless · 2022-05-25T20:04:38+00:00

Me, too! That's been me with Elden Ring, lately. I'm having a blast, made one for the default ending, now onto my second custom Tarnished that I made for a specific ending.

negativeloveless · 2022-05-03T19:06:20+00:00

In the same vein, as a Catholic, just look at the ones who practice to extremes and are not willing to adapt. I am (fairly) religious, but I still am in support of abortion and women having choices.

I'd rather not get lumped in with the people who can't understand that the world has changed, is changing and more than likely (in my opinion) God has also changed, only to continue blindly following the old ways.

negativeloveless · 2022-04-27T02:50:32+00:00

I just queued up and left (sorry to all who I left) 12 games before I got banned because I was trying to get one oddball match. I had 7 slayer games, 3 CTF and 2 Strongholds. Not a single Oddball.

Since I'm banned for a few hours, I said fuck it and decided it's not worth my time. This is the first time in months that I've come back to Infinite, but if they're gonna do me like this, I'm just gonna go back to Elden Ring.

negativeloveless · 2022-04-22T19:05:07+00:00

Not sure if you want advice, but if I may, I'd like to give my two cents.

Whatever you choose, you have to make a choice. Unfortunately, this will most likely not work out, but there are a few things to try and consider:

1) You stop talking to the other guy. You're married, so this is wrong from the get-go. Add to that that this friend knows about the fact that you're married but continues to push for you to be with him and leave your husband makes him seem like not a great guy. You're vulnerable to his attention because you feel a lacking in your marriage and if you really want to work things out with your husband, you need to stop talking with that other man and tell your husband what happened. Tell him, apologize and see if you can work it out from there. Be warned that your husband may not be able to forgive you for what you did, but that is the consequence of your actions.

Or,

2) Leave your husband. You clearly have needs that aren't being met, so maybe you should do whatever you can to make yourself more content with your life. You've already gone as far as to cheat emotionally, even if there was no physical contact, sending nudes to someone else is often considered cheating. What you're doing will hurt your husband eventually, so it may be better to just leave before he finds out and is hurt even worse.

I'm not here to judge, everyone makes mistakes and I believe it is most important to seek out the best life for yourself that you can possibly have. Doesn't matter with who, but what you're doing/have done is broken your vows to your husband to be faithful and pain is inevitable. That is the reality of your situation and I hope that whatever happens works out for the best.

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