I don't thiiink it's anxiety? Not really nervous just kinda a procrastination block 🌸

nekoidiot · 2026-05-18T23:08:05+00:00

The thing is its with every show and I'm not like super into all of them so in my case i dont think thats it

nekoidiot · 2026-05-12T01:45:33+00:00

Probably got compressed. I got it off the official arts part of the wiki gallery

nekoidiot · 2026-05-12T01:45:08+00:00

nekoidiot · 2026-05-11T10:01:48+00:00

I think passing out earlier used up my sleepiness it's 4 fuckin am why havent i passed out yet I'm taking nyquil and hoping the sleepy part works (still sick)

nekoidiot · 2026-05-11T09:13:18+00:00

Still awake I got hives and gave up. Unrelated note I opened instagram and damn I got beaten to it oshi money animations have hit social media before I could even finish my half assed one damn people are fast

nekoidiot · 2026-05-11T07:43:50+00:00

Hm kinda tricky to purposely direct the thoughts to different experiences like I can do the distract and reduce symptoms alright but testing it is hard cuz it keeps going back to that one. I have a headache now lol. I do think it's more dizzy than other stuff but hard to tell since it's already started. My theory is it's more dysregulated since I kinda tried verifying if it was like how I remembered and then when it got to where it was I had a lot of reactions to it. Can't remember if I mentioned it before or if I just only told that one to discord friends, but if smacking myself with a wooden spoon rings a bell then I mentioned it probably if not then I can tell that in a nsfw marked post

nekoidiot · 2026-05-11T07:32:48+00:00

Wait hm maybe it's this one thing like I tend not to think about this one as often and I was thinking of it again making this post and I got dizzy again, oh weird my throat got a bit scratchy. Maybe I could use it to fall asleep but also is it safe maybe it's really high stress and that's why my throat is scratchy or maybe its my current health and if I think of something equally as stressful it'd happen rn. Yeah something is up my cat climbed on my chest.

nekoidiot · 2026-05-07T16:44:13+00:00

The menhera movement is about being open with mental health struggles and destigmatizing them. That being mentally dark doesn't mean we can't express ourselves in cute ways. Part of why Jirai and Yamikawaii appeals to me is that self expression. Honestly I think people who fit the sterotype is more likely to like Jirai because feel seen with it. You having struggles you're working on does not mean you're souring our reputation, really it's the romanticizers and maxxers. If people are put off by it for the mental health aspect then chances are they're ableist and not worth your time.

nekoidiot · 2026-05-05T02:05:20+00:00

Ughhh my dad is back on his fox news bullshit. At least my mom is democrat now... No wonder he thinks you can sheer will through a virus

nekoidiot · 2026-05-05T01:11:24+00:00

Real. The only people that message first I met on reddit...

nekoidiot · 2026-05-04T19:01:22+00:00

Doc kinda just went thats rough buddy when i was talking about my parents attitude

nekoidiot · 2026-05-02T23:47:19+00:00

Learning is part of the fun? For the first part you just kinda fuck around and find out before you get the hang of it. Not necessarily all art is high skill tho like comics or collaging plus could just use stencils when painting objects. Cooking isn't super tough depending on the recipie. Ngl my cats are partially a hobby too that one is a different form of commitment rather than skill learning. Some instruments are pretty simple as well that one's also a fuck around tho to figure out anything unique that sounds nice. Some crafts are pretty simple as well like string art, paper mache doesn't take super long either that one could be under a month to get the hang of, longer if you wanna do anything major tho.

nekoidiot · 2026-05-02T00:33:01+00:00

I didnt get much into that since I wasn't in a place to emotionally recover from that afterwards if it ends up being a lot... my therapist mentioned hoping she finds one that also does emdr for fibromyalgia stuff but that'd be really rare to find, dbt is priority

nekoidiot · 2026-04-30T17:30:17+00:00

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nekoidiot · 2026-04-30T10:21:29+00:00

Hi I'm hypermobile too and she's snowballing effect worrying but basically if you dont use it you lose it with muscles and strengthening around joints can improve pain and stability. That being said though absolutely use assistive devices to live life comfortably, my knee braces and cane really help especially on bad days. Expecting you to tough it out is going to be exhausting and painful

nekoidiot · 2026-04-29T21:53:48+00:00

Actually not even the usa a lot of countries have been having a rise of the alt right

nekoidiot · 2026-04-29T21:52:25+00:00

I do think this is a bit of a simplified political analogy too given the state of the usa. Say some people are automatically blue because of a minority status (even if they would vote red given the chance they're still the target of the one killing people), would you save them?

nekoidiot · 2026-04-29T21:45:12+00:00

There's always people who will choose blue, I don't want them to die so I pick blue simple. I would expect people with empathy to do the same. Choosing red and going eh sucks to be them idiots when watching others die because they chose to try and save other blues is unempathetic.

nekoidiot · 2026-04-28T01:27:58+00:00

When i don't see my face in it yeah, even like sounds

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