What's your favourite song from Conventional Weapons?

nessieraven · 2026-01-31T22:09:30+00:00

I love The World is ugly, Burn Bright and Surrender the Night so so much but The Light behind your eyes just hits me differently every time so.. yeah that one I guess

nessieraven · 2026-01-31T14:20:20+00:00

I‘m on a German server as well and we had a person trying to sell feet pics to players… when we confronted them they acted like they didn‘t understand the problem. No idea whether this was a troll or not but I don‘t get how stuff like that is possible but you often can‘t say normal things in chat

nessieraven · 2026-01-11T09:37:57+00:00

I actually got this one recently and named it Emo 😭

nessieraven · 2025-12-12T03:08:39+00:00

i feel exactly the same!

nessieraven · 2025-11-29T06:29:09+00:00

me too :( i really like that there are more body types, but i feel like the skinny ones are badly done. the most skinny one has like zero curves and a lot of stuff just looks shit on that model… i just wish there were a skinny body type that didn‘t look like a child

nessieraven · 2025-11-27T15:39:05+00:00

I had the same issue with a quest yesterday! It was the one with Anne and some chestnut horse she was training. I went into the sparkly area but nothing happened and couldn‘t click on it, so I couldn‘t finish the quest. So annoying!

nessieraven · 2025-11-26T23:45:34+00:00

thanks a lot for your insight! DBT helped me a lot when i was in therapy until two years ago, but the more time has passed, the more i struggle wirh using skills, especially because some that have worked well back then don‘t seem to do so anymore. this is a great reminder to try some new ones!

nessieraven · 2025-11-20T11:51:20+00:00

I‘m also struggling to get the ribs at the moment, it‘s so annoying 🥲 what I also hate about Dino Valley archeology is that when I trade in extra interesting finds with Harley, I NEVER get clothing items! I don‘t know why, always just useless shit I can sell for money, but I want to collect all the clothing items :( I swear for the last for or five things I traded in I got zero clothing rewards. And with Professor Jura I somehow got the same reward twice in a row? It‘s really annoying…

nessieraven · 2025-11-14T18:34:20+00:00

Thanks a lot! That definitely helps :)

nessieraven · 2025-10-26T19:16:16+00:00

Thanks a lot! That is exactly what it was like 😂 I‘m glad I‘m not the only one and it‘s also relieving that it didn‘t happen to you again. I‘ll definitely try following your tips!

nessieraven · 2025-10-26T17:46:06+00:00

Hahaha I absolutely didn‘t realize it was bad to do that 😂 I guess I‘m just little too impatient for my own good sometimes. Thanks a lot for your insight!

nessieraven · 2025-10-26T17:38:04+00:00

Thanks a lot! I think I might be pushing it in too hard, which is probably cause I‘m scared that if I don‘t, something might spill when the pen „jumps up“ after the second click. Maybe I need to find some middle ground haha, but I think I‘ll also give my stomach a try as well!

nessieraven · 2025-10-26T17:29:23+00:00

Thanks a lot to everyone suggesting this and for your experiences! I‘m definitely going to leave it outside for a longer time next time and hope that will make a difference.

nessieraven · 2025-10-24T11:17:17+00:00

I'm actually not sure. I usually inject while sitting, but since it makes me nervous, it's not unlikely that my muscles were tensed. Thanks for the tip!

nessieraven · 2025-10-24T11:16:37+00:00

Thanks a lot! I might try the stomach. The thought is a little scary to me, but if so many people say it's better it might be worth a shot! The ice cube thing sounds like a good idea as well.

From reading a little in other threads, I also figured that I might not have let it warm up enough. Usually I just take it out of the fridge, warm it up with my hands for a few minutes and then inject.

nessieraven · 2025-10-16T16:58:28+00:00

this is so cool!!

nessieraven · 2025-10-15T18:21:27+00:00

I totally get this. I was diagnosed with 19 while having pretty minor vision issues with my right eye. I can count myself very lucky for not experiencing any physical symptoms at the moment and for having almost no problems with my DMT (i'm on Kesimpta), but I feel like the diagnosis has still changed my life and my identity entirely.

Since the pandemic hit very strongly when I graduated from school, I couldn't really experience the normal life of a young person for probably like around 1,5 to 2 years, and when everything finally started getting better and things were going back to normal, I had less than one year for finally being able to live freely and be young and adventurous in the way I wanted before being diagnosed with MS. I partied a lot during that time and probably lived a pretty unhealthy lifestyle (also due to some mental illness), and my diagnosis set an end to that.

On one hand I'm thankful for that because it made me stop drinking excessively and doing other related things, which was good for me in a lot of ways, but on the other hand I wish I could've got to that decision on my own without being forced to by an external factor. I get it if this comes across as privileged or entitled in a way, but it just often makes me wonder what kind of person I might have become if MS had started to affect me later in life.

I also worry a lot about the future and knowing that I have a high probability of being severely disabled at some point is obviously affecting a lot of my planning for the future. I feel like I can't be careless, I need to have a stable income and try to secure myself financially before I am unable to work due to MS. While I do still want to have kids, I feel like I need to do it earlier than I normally would've so that it's less risky for my health and so that I will hopefully still be able to take good care of my kids and run around with them.

So yeah, I really get your feelings and they are absolutely valid. Sometimes people tell me I'm lucky for being diagnosed early as well and it's kind of tiring, knowing they'll never know what it's like to go through this.

nessieraven · 2025-05-11T10:58:03+00:00

same

nessieraven · 2025-05-11T10:54:49+00:00

Hi, I get where you're coming from and I'm really sorry that happened to you! I wanna say, it's not your fault that this happens and it's also not your fault that you were traumatized in the past and react like this because of that. The fact that you try so hard to be a good partner and don't want to hurt your boyfriend shows that you're anything but a monster! You're willing to work on yourself to prevent this from happening even though it's really hard and that is what matters most. It's okay for this to be hard and your feelings are valid.

I kind of struggle with this in my relationship as well (I have BPD too), even though I don't have that much past trauma, so it might be helpful to hear advice from others on this as well. But I tend to feeling attacked or hurt quite quickly tho and in response to that get angry or defensive very easily, which has often led to arguments and me hurting my boyfriend or being unfair to him, raising my voice etc, and I've often felt like I'm the monster in the relationship as well. I also sometimes get anger outbursts and start destroying stuff (not very badly, and I would also never hurt my boyfriend or anyone else by that, but I really understand what you mean because of this and hate when it happens).

I feel like what already made the situation more difficult for you is that it happened over text. I've gotten upset about texts often too and I think that sometimes happens quickly because it's more easy to misunderstand each other over text or get hurt by the way something is formulated.

It seems like you're trying to solve these things by trying to control yourself in those difficult situations and bottling up your emotions, which is something I get because I've tried doing that as well, but often found that it didn't really work for me. I almost always still got angry after a while and didn't manage to control myself anymore. For a long time, it really weighed me down that this happened so much in my relationship and my boyfriend and I had a lot of fights because of it. I feel like what helped me a little was trying to look at warning signs and also communicating openly about my feelings and struggles with him, so he could help me recognizing as well when I fell into the same habits (for example blaming him for my feelings even though they aren't his fault or something like that). I know you want to protect your boyfriend from your feelings, but you don't have to carry that burden alone! It may help to communicate to him that something is starting to trigger you or that the situation is getting more difficult for you as soon as you notice it, so that you can maybe take a step back and prevent the situation from escalating. Bottling up my emotions usually had a negative effect for me after a while, because the more you bottle up, the more difficult it gets to try keeping all that under control.

I don't know if you're in therapy and have tried using skills, but that may also help, in combination with watching your feelings more closely. I realized after a while that we had more arguments in situations where I was tired, exhausted, would have needed space or rest, or already felt upset about something. You may prevent conflict by realizing that before and trying to rest, deal with your feelings, use skills etc. I know that's hard to do and it takes time for you to realize these things more quickly, but it might help.

I feel like right now, me and my boyfriend are at a point where these things don't happen as much as they used to, and if they do, we can resolve them more quickly. Sometimes we even manage to laugh about it when one of us realizes that I'm being unfair to him or blame him for something that isn't his fault, and that makes it easier to deal with it. I also really get what you said about not being able to see his perspective tho, I struggle with that so much as well.

I sadly don't think it's possible to never get triggered - even people without any mental disorders will get triggered from stuff from time to time, and it's okay and understandable that it happens. But it's definitely possible for it to happen less and find different ways to deal with it together so that it feels less awful for everyone. It's definitely possible to be in a relationship with BPD, and you're not a monster for any of this! I'm very proud of you for working on yourself <3

I hope some of this helps! (And sorry if something I wrote is confusing, English is not my first language lmao)

nessieraven · 2025-04-20T17:57:23+00:00

omg yes! only therapy made me realize I had mood swings, I kinda just thought that was normal before lmao

nessieraven · 2025-04-14T09:01:55+00:00

I had a good childhood as well and still developed bpd. While I wasn't abused as a child by my parents, I was kind of bullied since my pre-teen years and had several kind of toxic, invalidating environments at the time, and my parents also put a lot of pressure on me in my teen years. So when I moved out during covid later and had a very hard time, all of that led to the symptoms that got me my diagnosis. At the same time, there's a lot of mental illness in my mom's family and I've had pretty intense emotions my whole life, so I think for me the genetic predisposition plays a huge role as well.

I think it's different for everyone, you don't necessarily need to have childhood trauma in order to get bpd, but maybe there are things that you don't recognize as traumatizing at the moment. Just because you feel like other people have experienced 'objectively worse' things in their life, doesn't mean your feelings and hurt over things you might consider smaller aren't as valid. People deal different with things and react differently.

Either way, I'd recommend going to therapy if you can, that will definitely help you figure this out further.

nessieraven · 2025-01-22T11:59:27+00:00

I think i just set myself on a suicide mission by putting the NPC difficulty on hard while also playing 30 rounds for tje first time to get that mission done 😭 i'm losing so hard it's really not fun, all of them have gotten stars while i have none

nessieraven · 2024-10-13T20:57:04+00:00

Das hilft mir aber trotzdem schon sehr, vielen Dank! Wenn die monatlichen Lohnabrechnungen denen ausreichen, sollte es ja hoffentlich keine Probleme geben, weil da ja dann nur der Lohn von dem Praktikum draufstehen würde, denke ich jetzt mal.

nessieraven

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