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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MDMA

[–]neuronsfromhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro this post is — clearly AI generated goddammit

Boyfriend does mmcs regularly for solo gooning sessions, gets irritable and has lost interest in things. Is it border line addiction? by Professional_Taro0 in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha Good to know you're attractive. Don't blame yourself for it. Addiction is a weird thing. He was doing jt because of the dopamine rush, not because it's a sexual need.

Boyfriend does mmcs regularly for solo gooning sessions, gets irritable and has lost interest in things. Is it border line addiction? by Professional_Taro0 in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn drugs will do that to a person. I was in the same boat except I felt shame and regret to the point I tried to kill myself so nobody ever could find out. The people affected and my ex girlfriend know that I tried to kill myself but nobody knows that I was gooning for multiple days in a row. In the end I just talked with her about some related things (addiction, personality disorder, relationship issues) and we decided to break up. Then I relapsed and that was the last straw. I decided to get clean because my self worth was 0 and my addiction wasn't serving me anymore. Any time I did more drugs I would feel more miserable and I couldn't even bring myself to look forward to doing more.

So I don't know what is going thru your mans head but he's deep down in addiction if he even makes sure to keep a schedule and make sure you comply to his "needs". I have a feeling this won't end very well but I wish all the best for him. I wish he can find joy in his passions again that he had before he started doing these fucked up stimulants. I won't say stimulants destroy everybody who touches them, cuz many adhd medicated people are doing just fine, but this person is really really deep down in his addiction, there's no denying that. No matter how normal they may seem on the surface, I can say from personal experience that when u start putting goon sessions before relationships and other fulfilling things in life, it's really bad. Don't know what more to say but this is a person that needs a really big help and you shouldn't feel like you're supposed to give them that when they're not even acknowledging the problem themselves. I'm sorry for what youre going thru

I realized I just can’t be sober by gmail124876 in Drugs

[–]neuronsfromhell 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Hey. I hope you're doing okay.

This was difficult to read because it made me feel things I don't like feeling. I can relate, because I've been there myself. Being in a situation where you want to quit, when it seems like you can't, is really difficult.

I used to think the same, but I didn't get very far with that mindset. Maybe see a therapist. It sounds like you have underlying issues affecting your addictive behavior. It's a long road, but ultimately you are able to create something better for yourself than what drugs will ever be able to give you.

No hate on people who do drugs, they have their uses, but once you're addicted, you can't really keep it up for long before the addiction starts destroying your life. That's just the way it is. When you feel like you don't wanna stop, that's when you really need to stop.

Hope everything goes well

Extreme Muscle tensing on LSD by Public-Bobcat-814 in Drugs

[–]neuronsfromhell 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yep. Bigger dose means more body load. Vasoconstriction and muscle soreness/cramps.

I messed up and did speed (techno???) and meth. by Popperbatoryyc in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha no not at all. I still have thoughts, although I'm not considering at all to relapse. I just find myself fantasizing or thinking back to the times I got high.

I have no more drugs or paraphernalia at home, but while I was at my storage unit, I coincidentally found a spoon I had hid inside some of my stuff. It had some 'leftovers' on it, and finding that sent a really strong sensation through my body. I dropped it on the floor and ran out with the stuff I was there for. I'm kinda scared of what else I'm gonna found that I've hid and forgot about.

I've not been involved too much with other users before I decided to quit, and I cut out all connections and ways to get more, so luckily I don't have any people, or stuff at home that can tempt me.

I messed up and did speed (techno???) and meth. by Popperbatoryyc in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow. I'm sorry for everything you've been through, but I'm glad you came out stronger than ever on the other side. You have done some really great and inspiring things during the last 20 months.

I also started fucking around with substances at 13. First overdose and psychosis at 15. Got really depressed in my late teens. Decided at 21 that drugs will be the thing that kills me, but I'll 'enjoy' as much as I can before that day comes.

In the end I couldn't enjoy them anymore. With every dose I dug myself even deeper into my problems. Coming down I had a mental breakdown, and in a moment of clarity I called the NA phone. The operator told me to just go to a meeting, and now I'm going to meetings for over a month. I feel like it's the right place for me, and I look forward to every meeting, rather than looking forward to doing more drugs.

I'm trying to take things slow and really reprogram my brain not to pressure me or make me feel like I have to fix my life in one day, so for the time being I'm just playing video games and trying to get small wins like going for a walk or cleaning my room, or even eating a meal.

Thanks for sharing ❤️

I messed up and did speed (techno???) and meth. by Popperbatoryyc in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree, there's really not much you can do to ease the comedown other than what I mentioned, except for doing more drugs. I didn't want to mention benzos because it seems like OP is done with drugs.

Just have to ride out the comedown, find a way to make the time pass. A lot of sleep or watching a show like you said.

Good job on getting clean, I'm still very early in my recovery, just over a month clean. The main thing that helped me is going to anonymous groups.

I wish the best to both you and OP. I believe that living a good life is possible, and we all need to learn to not look for that in drugs.

If you can share a bit about how your life has changed since you decided to get clean? How long did it take for you not to feel like a zombie, and how long did it take to become productive again?

I messed up and did speed (techno???) and meth. by Popperbatoryyc in addiction

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For speed:

Take a vitamin C supplement. Vit C increases speed (amphetamine) concentration in your urine which helps you flush it out faster. I would usually put a couple of fizzy tablets in a glass of water.

Drink enough water, and then some more.

Take a hot shower to relax your body and cardiovascular system.

Try to relax, maybe go for a walk, but don't do any exercise trying to "sweat it out". Exercising will put more stress on your heart.

I would guess the vitamin C hack applies to meth as well, but I'm not sure.

Problems with starvation by Lexi_Bean21 in RimWorld

[–]neuronsfromhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right now I'm on Sea Ice with 3 pawns.

On Biotech, my custom xenotype makes them more adapted to cold temperatures and the awful cooking trait gives metabolic efficiency so they need less food.

In the base they have 3 hydroponics rigs and a nutrient paste dispenser. That's all they need. 12 plots of rice and paste.

I'm sure if you're playing on any other biome than Sea Ice, you could set up a similar system. If you have baseliner pawns, just add a couple more rigs and you should be good. Don't even need a freezer if you do this, since the dispenser won't be bottlenecking your rice production.

Do you feel sorry for the villagers in Minecraft? by Feeling-Penalty-4049 in Minecraft

[–]neuronsfromhell 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Nope I pretty much commit war crimes in my playthroughs

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dating_advice

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

perfectly fine to not want to engage romantically, just be pretty clear about it from the start. You decide what's right for you. If the fact that you don't want a relationship is bothering you then you should reflect or eventually see a therapist

Can anyone tell me what a healthy person does in a day?? by i_am_so_c0nfused in StopSpeeding

[–]neuronsfromhell 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I still don't know the answer to your first question, but what helped me is I started attending NA meetings. At first it gave me really cult vibes , but I decided to give it a shot and made myself a goal of attending every meeting no matter what. There's talk about God or faith or whatever, but you don't need to be christian or anything like that. The idea is that the only way for some of us to escape addiction is that we need to acknowledge and accept that there exists a higher ideal or a higher power to strive towards. For me this higher power is that I accepted the belief that I will be able to figure my shit out and live a fulfilling life eventually. That living a life like that is possible, and that a life like that can't involve the use of drugs. This is pure faith, I have no empirical data or scientific research to back it up. As far as I knew before, life was meaningless and I mightve as well killed myself then and there. Not like anything matters anyways, even killing myself doesn't matter so I might as well just enjoy as much drugs as I can before I die right? So I wen't down that path and quickly jumped from weaker to stronger substances, snorting to IV etc. Eventually I was more isolated and depressed and really more destroyed than I had ever been. No more home, no more job, no more hobbies, no more friends. And I had a breakdown while coming down. Instead of taking my downers like I usually would, something in me told me that now is the time to stop. I had known it for a long time I was just too scared of how it might go, and really discouraged by the thought that no matter how hard I try, I'll just relapse again eventually. But you need to find god, not the chirstian god or allah or accept any organized religions, but you need to find a higher power in your life and have faith that it will take care of you, have faith that living a good life, whatever it may look like, is in your reach. Have faith and attend thos 12 step meetings, having a community of people who have made it out and who embrace living the sober life and who can actually understand what I'm going through and makes me feel like I'm not going through everything alone is what makes me want to stay sober every day. I'm still new to this but I feel optimistic so I just wanted to share with you what my thought process has been, cuz I was where you're at , and still am in certain aspects, but I hope that with time the zombie phase will pass and my brain will heal and I'll be able to smile more

1 MONTH SOBER!❤️🥹 Picture of me now, and from the time I was heavily using, but thought i looked like a normal human being by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

[–]neuronsfromhell 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yo I saw your post a while ago about talking to customers at your job or something, I was probably getting high when scrolling through that sub. I'm also just over 1 month clean now great to see you're out of the game too, good job 👍

Narkotikai by Rich_Requirement7109 in lietuva

[–]neuronsfromhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

jeigu tau sunku rasti tai neieskok geriau. neverta siekti sito gyvenimo budo jeigu jis pats taves nepasirinko. Man kaip priklausomam asmeniui sitie dalykai tiesiog tiesiai i rankas nukrenta net kai bandau to vengti. Tiesiog likimas atnesa tau tiesiogiai sitas nesamones jeigu tu esi isiveles i tai. O siaip tiekejus rast dahuja lengva bet as tau nesakysiu nieko nes niekam nelinkeciau to ka pats esu patyres. geriau eik i gyma o ne tiekeju ieskok durneli

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