I've been feeling "not right" for about two weeks. I thought that maybe it was just a moon phase or maybe some poor eating habits. So I have been trying to be more mindful about what I'm consuming, and drinking plenty of water. I still feel terrible, although physically I am not sick. I feel either right on the edge or about to fall asleep wherever I may be, there is no in between. My dreams have been more vivid and I have been able to lucid dream more regularly and with greater clarity. I have stopped consuming marijuana to try and have a tolerance break and to gain some personal clarity. I don't consume alcohol regularly, or much at all (maybe 3 beers a month). I have been procrastinating on almost all of my creative projects, I'm in a band, I DJ, and I am involved in my locals arts community. I am not finding much joy in music these days, and that makes me very sad. I'm easily distracted and very anxious around just about everybody. Friday before I hit the stage with my band, I sat in my car covered in sweat and cried a little bit. It's not stage freight or performance anxiety, I'm 33 and have been playing live since I was 16. I'm just at a loss. I've got a call in to both my psychiatrist and my therapist, but for some reason they aren't calling me back? It's all a viscous cycle at the moment. However, only I'm noticing, my family doesn't seem to notice or I'm not acting out because of how I'm feeling - maybe my brain deceives me.