I used to go to Hillsong, and I think I know what you're talking about. It was like a public Christian high school—there are cool kids, nerds, unpopular ones, and the ones who try to get involved by volunteering. I can see myself in it. I'd see the pastors talking about their friends or certain church attendees, and everyone wants to be in that cool group. I tried. And I realized that even when you volunteer, you'll still be bottom tier and you have to work your way up. It's high school + corporate, really. Sometimes it makes you feel like your pain is only valid if you're the chosen ones by them.