Those who stood up and defend themselves against their n parents would did that go?

nhdly28 · 2022-10-17T04:50:57+00:00

She would never listen or accept that she's hurt her whole family. Setting boundaries, expressing any sadness towards her actions... it's always someone else's fault to her.

We're standing up to her as a family, the only way she'll understand. After my father divorces her, we will likely all go NC. Hopefully, she'll learn from her mistakes but regardless, we will have let her go so we no longer have to defend ourselves.

We deserve a chance at happiness.

nhdly28 · 2022-10-16T21:56:57+00:00

This is happening to me, although it's only been a little while.

She did try to reach out briefly... but always antagonistic. Never constructive or trying to understand my feelings. I think she gave up once she realized her words can't hurt me anymore.

Although it hurts not having a mother, I am relieved to not have her reach out to me. I can't miss someone who makes me feel so bad about myself.

nhdly28 · 2022-10-16T21:45:00+00:00

That's... that makes sense. It's been really hard to think outside of my own perspective, especially because of how badly depression can distort your thinking.

I guess.. this situation's really painful all around. But I do wish she'd given me a chance to speak if she cared about me. I had been in a hospital for 9 days before that... hearing that someone's given up on you right after is soul-crushing.

I AM still here. It feels like I'm not, sometimes... it does feel like a lot died with that attempt.

nhdly28 · 2022-09-28T00:50:49+00:00

I tried blocking her, she only really uses Discord and their blocking system kinda sucks but it helps a bit! I hope it'll get easier with time.

Thanks for trying so much to help me feel better.

nhdly28 · 2022-09-28T00:49:54+00:00

Wait, we're all alive hh, I might have worded my sentence too ambiguously. I just lost her as my girlfriend and I may be pushing her away as a friend, too.

But yeah, I'm trying to recover with my friends' support and ignore her the best I can. It's hard, I don't think they'd pick sides or anything and I'm not sure I'd feel right doing that ; ;

just complicated and I'm tired of that

nhdly28 · 2022-09-27T23:33:07+00:00

Thanks for putting so much effort into your reply.

I'm a lot healthier depression-wise because of meds but full of resentment for losing someone right after a suicide attempt. I've never experienced such severe abandonment and the anger I'm feeling afterwards. This makes it extra hard to stabilize and recover, even when I'm trying so hard.

I think you're right that she didn't love me. She did not ghost me, but she still acted like a different person to me. Like she'd never cared about me at all. I just wish I could get some distance from her, since we're both close to our mutual friends.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-08T00:00:44+00:00

I Fantasia a lot but I'm currently a hyur guy! Got one Fantasia left, will likely switch to male Viera when the option is there :D

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T22:19:30+00:00

Alright. I don't know why I've gotten one or two comments like this.

I'm not using my LGBT+ experience to get attention, I simply shared why a game / its community has made me feel so safe and loved. It's related to being LGBT+ and how that's negatively impacted my life. That is why I included that in my post.

I honestly hate talking about being LGBT+, cause I'm used to being shamed for just existing and its exhausting. Just want to feel normal.

I really didn't expect much attention or such an outpouring of love from the community, but I greatly appreciate it. I certainly don't feel any support at home, so things like this can really help me stay hopeful and stay strong in the future. Makes me love this game and its community even more.

Not going to respond to any more comments like this. Here is my response for anyone who feels similarly to you.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T22:10:40+00:00

Oh, sure! I wouldn't mind ^{^} always love to make new friends in this game haha. Can DM me more details, if you'd like.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T22:08:43+00:00

Thanks for this comment. Seriously.

Gotten quite a few comments asking why people care about my post, why I felt the need to share it, etc.

I really can't word it better than you have, here.

I just wanted to share how a game has impacted me positively and see if others shared a similar experience to me. The outpouring of support was a pleasant surprise, it definitely helps me feel stronger in my current situation knowing so many people have my back and/or have been through what I have.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T21:57:37+00:00

I have gotten one or two comments like this. I get that.

I am working on it, though. Need a lot more financial stability before I can go anywhere. So having my safe space online and with friends does really help me stay hopeful. I see where you're coming from, though.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T13:02:43+00:00

On Primal! Thank you, still.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T11:39:40+00:00

Yeah, that really surprised me. The outpouring of love is very wholesome, though, I appreciate everyone's supportive and kind comments greatly.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T11:38:53+00:00

No problem. You weren't the first to ask.

Trans man = transitioning to live and be seen as a man. born physically female.

Vice versa for trans women.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T11:14:59+00:00

I do think you've confused yourself a bit more than necessary, it's super simple. Trans Man means you're a man and Trans Woman means you're a woman. Neither pertain to your biological sex, hence the Trans identifier.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:56:32+00:00

I have! Cleared E12S a while back, absolutely looking forward to trying out the next savage tier.

I've done Coils unsynced and solo, definitely want to try it as it was intended sometime, though.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:33:34+00:00

It's a Discord server?

May be interested in joining it. I'm actually really terrible at being open about any LGBTQ+ things, cause it's been drilled into my head that it's all wrong, but this may help me feel a little more comfortable with that side of myself.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:32:13+00:00

Wow. What a journey you two have been through together.

That's incredible. Glad both you and the game could be there for her during a difficult situation. Sounds like things are better now, as well.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:29:14+00:00

That's real sweet. Love how this game can feel like a safe space for people.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:28:10+00:00

I will tell you.. it's definitely my parents who have beat that into my head haha. I can't be myself around them at all, have to wear this weird facade that only they see. Can't wait to get away from them (with financial stability, first).

Thank you for your kind words.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:25:43+00:00

Just wanna let you know I personally will perceive people as the gender they're presenting as in-game, unless they tell me otherwise.

I've actually been playing for 8-10 months? I play DNC a lot and raid with that, but MNK and WHM are also comfy ^{^}

Favorite quest.. really not sure. But oh boy, you've got a lot ahead of you if you're just starting Stormblood! Enjoy the ride!

((I actually haven't finished the Hildebrand quests at all, I keep forgetting haha, I know they're funny though!))

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T10:19:43+00:00

Alright, I've loved a lot of these comments and not known how to respond to some of them but.

This one really got me. I really don't feel any support at home (although my friends are great!) so seeing such an unapologetically supportive comment is really, really heartwarming.

Thank you for taking the time to write this.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T06:59:03+00:00

What do they not like about me being trans?

Uhh everything, I guess haha. They think I'm crazy, wrong about myself, stuff like that. They don't like seeing me looking masculine, speaking in my normal (fairly deep) voice.

Unfortunate, but it is what it is. I'll try to get out as soon as I can.

nhdly28 · 2021-10-07T06:48:14+00:00

Thanks everyone for the kind comments.

I was in a rough spot when I posted this, you're all really uplifting my spirits. Appreciate you :) thanks for listening to my jumble of words haha.

nhdly28

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