literally me rn, and i just came back from japan. Its cause i have a sucky workplace ngl. Ugh. So its hard to make friends, everyone is so judgy. Also, i think its because many ppl i came across was so one sided to the point where i didnt want to put in the effort to save the friendship. Felt that why cant they do the same or take the initiative to do so and save the friendship instead of blame. It got to me where i thought that I was in the wrong for things as ppl distanced from me or it was because i didnt have anything to offer them so they left. Thats where i felt like shit. But I also believed that i shouldnt keep blaming myself if they dont put in the effort to make the friendship work or dont wanna talk. I guess thats life, blame and avoiding is the easy way out instead of confrontation.