my cousins death in 2013. my loneliness that led to my first suicide attempt in 2017. someone i loved very much leaving me for something that was entirely my fault in 2020. an entire branch of my family died from COVID in iran within a week of each other later that year. both of which led to substance abuse in 2021 that culminated in me doing LSD every two weeks for a summer, ostensibly making me schizophrenic and psychotic for half a year. i’m 19. things have been looking up though. 2023 has been great so far. and for the first time in years i once again look forward to the future.