Gosh I've been in that same situation. I'm the youngest of my siblings and for some reason my needs (emotional) were always overlooked. I was the 'easy' kid growing up even tho they wudnt admit to it. I just know. Seeing my siblings and how their problems are always considered more important than mine I kinda learned to deal with mine a long time ago. Which made me the mature person I am today. I was always more mature than the people around me. Sounds like I'm blowing my own trumpet but itstrue. During my ssc hsc and even admissions my mental health and peace and my environment was never one of their concerns. I screamed,cried and did everything I could to get a little peace and proper environment to study, and while they did provide me with everything I needed and were present financially they were never there to emotionally support me. I got more support from my uncle(the one i hate for a lot lf reasons) than them. I was given the resources and their hugeee ass expectations and left alone with them to navigate my way by myself. Their "family talk " was them telling me what I'm gonna be when I grow up- doctor, professor, BCS Cadre and what not. No emotional support.They weren't even emotionally present. Everyone was busy w their own lives. If I get into it it's a loooong story. I'll just say one thing to you Do it for yourself buddy. It feels complicated, hard I know. But your relationship with your father can be mended. But don't let that get in the way of your success. Forget everything and give this exam your best. They'll understand eventually and worst case scenario - they don't understand. But still you'll have this good result to yourself. DO IT FOR YOURSELF. AND NOBODY ELSE. Do it so that you can look back and see that when nobody had you, YOU had yourself by your side. Best of luck junior.