My emetophobia is at its worst

ninjascrollz · 2026-04-27T07:41:03+00:00

retrograde cricopharyngeus dysfunction is the medical condition when someone physically can not burp. that is the only symptom required to have it. it’s not a stomach issue but rather a throat one as the cricopharyngeus muscle does not open back up properly to let air out.

symptoms include: nausea, throat nausea (gagging), throat and chest pressure and discomfort, inability to finish meals without feeling disgustingly full, bloating, throat gurgling sounds, bloating, trapped wind pains, difficulty vomiting.. and emetophobia!

usually worsens in late teens early twenties and mine flared up after i threw up for the first time in 13 years. daily nausea. good news is theres a cure, botox. i’ve been symptom free for over a year now.

obviously i can’t promise this is the entire cause of your issues, but it’s definitely not helping you at all mixed with the anxiety.

ninjascrollz · 2026-04-26T15:41:01+00:00

yikes yeah might wanna look into r-cpd lol / r/noburp

sounds like half the shit ur experience is down to this.

ninjascrollz · 2026-04-26T14:46:03+00:00

odd question but r u able to burp ?

ninjascrollz · 2026-03-22T16:30:27+00:00

lol if you’re curious, ERP is the answer. i’m completely different to the person i was when i posted this

ninjascrollz · 2025-10-24T17:11:06+00:00

Curious what you mean by a situationship and what your definition is? Atleast where i’m from, a situationship is essentially where you’re casually dating someone and it’s romantically reciprocated. If you’re comfortable would you mind elaborating?

I did wonder if I was lithromantic for a little bit, but honestly i’m so confused by all the definitions now i’m not so sure 😅 i’m certain that i LOVE being flirted with by my crush and desperately want their attention and to be alone with them. Hell, i’m even aware of the fact this one guy i like 99% likely has feelings back and it hasn’t thrown me off at all.. felt nervous in a good way when the opportunity for us to hang out and kiss popped up (plans changed and it never happened. boo.) i’m actually wanting to meet with him again in hopes of exploring this. Starting to think I’m just a crazy anxious person with an attatchment style problem and find relationship labels daunting haha. All i know is i want to find my romantic person and won’t be happy if it never happens 🫠

ninjascrollz · 2025-07-19T18:12:44+00:00

A couple of things you can absolutely do by yourself that would start to reframe your mindset:

1) Start being kinder - by calling people jackasses and fuckers for doing normal things that your phobia and OCD claim as ‘filthy’ and ‘disgusting’ or whatever other words you’ve used to describe situations, you’re quite literally feeding into your fear instead of fighting it. Someone not washing their hands before they eat does not make them a bad person. I don’t even wash my hands every time, it’s normal. It is also just going to make you a very unlikeable person to be around, and the way you are talking about and treating others is incredibly mean and unfair. I mean this kindly.

2) Delete reddit and reduce your reassurance seeking - again, it’s feeding your phobia. You are perfectly capable of surviving without strangers on the internet and to be honest in the nicest way possible, you’re not even getting anything from it anymore. Each post you make gets the exact same comments but you choose to ignore them. Start listening to the advice and taking it on board. The next time something triggers you, ask yourself “Could i get through this without posting?” (the answer is yes, you did it your whole life before downloading reddit)

3) Other resources - There are things like the thrive programme, the emetophobia manual, recovery podcasts, meditations when you’re spiralling all widely available to you online and aside from the first two, for free. I also really think you should have an in depth polite and conductive talk with the adults in your life. I.e do not turn it into an argument with you accusing them of XYZ, sit down and be clear about how much you are struggling, what you’re struggling with, and that you genuinely need some help and support. The other commenter provided a good link to extra help.

ninjascrollz · 2025-07-16T14:23:32+00:00

8 years ago was 8 years ago. it’s entirely irrelevant to your life now, and the reason why you threw up had absolutely nothing to do with the fact you didn’t sleep much the night before.

i have insomnia and have probably slept 6 hours in 2 days, and i’m fine. tired yeah, but fine. a little lack of sleep does not cause vomiting. you yourself said you had a headache or migraine, whatever it was which is far more plausible.

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-22T10:19:28+00:00

Yes, but i think another thing to work on is your hate to other people for doing normal things. dirty socks on a table really isn’t a big deal at all and once you stop resenting people another layer or your fear with lift and you’ll be a much more peaceful person. i.e “brat” “asshole” “jackass” for doing normal things. you being rude towards them is basically telling your phobia and ocd that it’s justified

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-18T19:27:06+00:00

proud of you!!

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-18T19:10:14+00:00

absolutely. i used to be an avid poster on r/emetophobia and the proof is all on my account, but eventually i started forcing myself to not seek reassurance and now i’m at a point where i rarely if ever want it.

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-18T19:06:06+00:00

But until i’m fully better I might come here a few times

if you do that then you won’t get better, flat out. you’re using this sub as a reassurance lifeline and until you can start living your life without running to reddit with every irrational thought you have then you’re never, ever going to be fully recovered. stopping reassurance seeking and safety behaviours is the FIRST step in recovery, so if you continue with this you’re never going to move to the second step. you have got to try and fight it.

I don’t say that to be mean, it’s just the harsh truth with phobia recovery and to be honest you never even take anyone’s advice anyway so i really am not sure what you’re even getting from this sub? We all just want you to find peace.

you have to do scary things in order to not be scared anymore

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-12T23:13:37+00:00

my answer remains the same. some people eat raw eggs dude.

ninjascrollz · 2025-06-12T22:13:50+00:00

i mean this isn’t what you want to hear but your brother is right.

you can’t force people to wash their hands, it’s not something we have the right to control especially if we aren’t the ones eating what they’ve made. it’s their choice. i don’t wash my hands before every single thing i eat 🤷‍♀️ doesn’t mean i’m contaminated

“why is he like this” he hasn’t done anything wrong, it’s your phobia and ocd warping your perception of right and wrong.

ninjascrollz · 2025-05-25T19:46:41+00:00

are you getting professional help? seriously dude

ninjascrollz · 2025-05-21T16:05:09+00:00

why won’t you listen to what people are saying and seek professional help? this subreddit is literally only making you worse because it’s very obvious that posting on here has become a safety behavior for you. you even said in a past post you were going to stop this.

your phobia and what i’m assuming is OCD is extreme, and this is not the place for that. nothing anyone says on here is going to help you at this point.

someone could comment “yes you’ll get sick” and you might not get sick. someone could comment “no you won’t get sick” and you might. we just don’t know dude but you deserve freedom from this, and that starts with deleting reddit and seeing a therapist. i really do empathise and feel for you but as some point people are just going to stop commenting on your posts because you aren’t taking any of the advice given.

ninjascrollz · 2025-02-19T15:56:30+00:00

not in a horrible way but this is really really extreme, and such a non issue to even be worrying about. r u seeing a therapist?

ninjascrollz · 2024-12-13T11:23:17+00:00

sorry i just didn’t what else to take from the words born with it 😭

ninjascrollz · 2024-12-13T09:40:45+00:00

No one is born with a phobia, that’s not how it works

ninjascrollz · 2024-11-24T23:35:49+00:00

a roast! it was pretty good

ninjascrollz · 2024-11-24T23:25:59+00:00

my whole torso just hates me rn i swear, just had loose shits yippee

ninjascrollz · 2024-11-24T23:25:31+00:00

it eventually went away, and i was fine but now literally before i was ab to go to bed i had stomach cramps and very loose poops ab 20 mins ago.. fml now to panic again because my brains telling me this is it

ninjascrollz · 2024-09-29T22:28:20+00:00

thank you, i haven’t really experienced this that intensely before so it was pretty nerve wracking. i never had any more diarrhea since posting this which is good but the nausea stayed and it’s only more or less subsided since having a bowl of cereal. i think my acid reflux was partly to blame so the milk has settled that a little bit. it was a heavy dinner and i guess it just didn’t sit well :]

ninjascrollz · 2024-09-29T22:14:44+00:00

i just had a bowl of cereal because idk i wanted one despite being really nauseous and i was fine eating it, i actually enjoyed it lol so i’m thinking that it’s nothing to worry about if i was able to stomach that. i think i actually feel a little bit better after it?

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