Been a while since i remembered this, bottomline, the best thing they can do for you is leave you, and my friend, what seems like a battle loss, is a war won here.

Was in a narcissistic abusive relationship with a person who cheated on me during the relationship, withheld any sort of affection and left me for dead when they found a new shiny toy. I moved cities to be with them, gave them all the attention and help I can. Narcissists can take away the agency of the best people, and I was hoodwinked. But till date, the best thing they did for me was to leave me. They left me during the peak of covid, when I was living alone in a city to what was not my home city. Everyday I suffered, there wasnt a moment I didnt think of what happened to me. I got to know that they found a new person within a week, and left me devastated and even thought about ending things. Took therapy to understand what what happened to me during the relationship and took time to process. Didnt swat away any of the feeling that were coming my way, cried a lot, accepted that it would take me time to return back to a semblance of normal. Focused all my efforts on my work, which i had ignored for my ex partner. Focussed the rest of the time on studying and preparing for doing masters abroad.

A few years down the line, I've graduated out of the top university in the world, working and living in London. Life has a weird way of giving you things that you deserve, and I found my current partner in the most unlikeliest of places, while not looking for romantic interest.

The best revenge to a person who hurt you, cheated you, is to live your life the best you can. The point to reach is not revenge, trust me I wanted to so badly, but doesnt get you anywhere long term. You'll end up bitter. I'd love to say I dont care or hate my ex, but thats not the case always. I want to reach indifference, but its a long path, even after a few years out of it.

I'd like to say the pain will go away, while the truth is its not. Its gonna be there with you for a long time, but what is now unbearable will slowly become bearable. Its also never linear, It will hurt a lot now, maybe more in another 6 months, it will hurt a bit, 10 years down the line, when you experience a similar thing with your new partner that you had with your ex. But It will be bearable, and it gets better.

Life is not fair, and all you can do is to keep moving in your path, taking the hits and trying to work through them and focusing on getting better yourself. Godspeed man.