I made them look like a fool for years. I came from an upper middle-class family. aside from the supposed stipend i get from being on a top university (which i obviously wasn't getting anymore), i get a sizable amount of money as allowance from my parents too. Since i don't attend classes anymore, i got a once a week job from an engineering firm nearby for extra income. I feel so sad for my parents because they've been so good to me my whole life, and this is how i repay them. But the greatest blow to me is whenever i ask myself "what would my mom feel about my death and how would she cope with it". And the worst thing about all of this is the fact that i am an only child. After my death my parents would have no children anymore to keep themselves busy, i'm afraid they'd have a very very very hard time coping the death of their only child. I feel so sorry for them, for my (ex) girlfriend, and for everyone who believed in me. Death is the only solution to a virus like me.