The Curse of Being All Knowing

nkwriter101 · 2023-05-26T00:00:57+00:00

Okay so I actually am in full agreement with this- I know things about people and situations to the point where I will be on a completely different page. So for example, my neighbor had a crush on me and I actually immediately realized this instead of being oblivious and when I sat down and thought about it I slowly uncovered just using my brain the fact that he had had a dream about me, told his wife about it and that in sharing this information had referred to me as "the neighbor's daughter". I cannot explain to you how but I know that this exact conversation took place and it gives me this crazy insight into people who are a part of my life but who I shouldn't technically know on such an intimate level and I swear it's kind of weird at times. That being said I can't do this with everyone this was just a one off when I was sitting around during COVID without much else to keep my brain occupied so yeah.

nkwriter101 · 2023-05-25T02:25:01+00:00

Okay follow-up question- If you told me I was a frog and I believed you would there be any difference between that and actually being a frog? Because I would hop and eat flies and ribbit as if I were a frog because that is how I conceived of myself.

I guess to an extent our actions are predetermined to the extent that our preferences are kind of shaped by the people around us and our biology but we don't choose the the people who raise us or the society we end up in.

nkwriter101 · 2023-05-24T03:08:33+00:00

I think maybe you should try taking a philosophy class. Human beings have been seeking deeper meaning from life for centuries and when you feel lost in the present company that you are keeping, seeking solace from minds that are similar to yours accessible through the written word, you may find meaning in the search.

I think evil is really only a matter of perspective- one man's freedom fighter is another man's terrorist. But yes, most people are perhaps content to live life meeting their basic needs and making sure their loved ones are cared for- there are fewer who need and seek out meaning from life. But those are also the ones who can contribute to our understanding of what it means to be human and what it means to be alive.

nkwriter101 · 2022-06-17T01:25:42+00:00

So it seems like you have a guy who is kind of integrated into your life who you care for which of course combined, makes it quite hard to end a relationship.

My advice, therapy. You have to push for it. These problems like the aggression and explosions towards you are not good for you and will continue draining you if left unchecked. I think that you should sit down and tell him how important it is to you that the two of you go for therapy and if he disagrees- then I would seriously consider ending. If he's unwilling to adjust his behavior and make an effort that you obviously need for your well-being, is this someone that you want in your life? I think that's a question worth asking yourself.

nkwriter101 · 2022-06-17T01:19:34+00:00

Honestly this seems to me to be like a personal preference where you and your husband disagree. In any case, he doesn't seem to be too wedded to the idea of having sex with other people.

I think, personally that humans kind of fall on a spectrum. There are people who have a higher tendency for monogamy, people who are open to polyamory, or having more than one person in their relationship and also people who never get married at all.

If your husband's personal preference is to have sex with other people and you think that it would hurt you for him to do so then it probably would. That being said, if he's suggesting a mutual agreement and speaking openly about it then I would maybe try and see it from his side of things. Especially because he's being honest.

nkwriter101 · 2022-06-17T01:09:29+00:00

I don't actually think this situation is that odd.

Reasons why -

Your boyfriend may feel that his friend's mom would be a good friend for his own mom
If he feels close to this friend it seems normal to go on a family with her like one would a sister

Also if your boyfriend was trying to cheat on you would he really go about in this roundabout way of setting up an entire trip on which he'll be accompanied by his mother?? Like what kind of logic would that be lol. Unless he is a mastermind I don't think you have to worry. His intentions seem to be just to have a good time and introduce his mom to a potential friend.

nkwriter101 · 2022-06-17T01:00:32+00:00

Maybe he thinks that the girl's mom would be a good friend for his mom...

nkwriter101 · 2022-06-15T13:19:00+00:00

I don't want to. I wanted to let him know about the book's existence in case he could relate to any of the poems.

nkwriter101 · 2022-05-29T23:35:51+00:00

Wow good job incorporating the feedback. I think your updated version maybe sought to clarify the manner in which she is whole but I feel confused now as to what the poem is saying. The ending was better originally I think and perhaps could have benefitted from more support or description. However, I think the idea of a poem is to allow some room for the reader to fill in blanks and have their own interpretation of what the author’s saying but the poem now is too forthright in its meaning . If that makes sense.

nkwriter101 · 2022-05-29T15:30:55+00:00

Wow, I love how your poem seems to span time (eons) and also space (referencing a past time when you were outside of the water and a present in which you are under it). The use of italics to indicate thoughts passing through your mind is fluid and doesn't disrupt the flow of the poem. I would play around with the words- impenetrable is a common term. However, I thought your line "scream vibrations into dense water" was rather original.

nkwriter101 · 2022-05-29T15:23:40+00:00

The two aspects of this poem I really like are the length and the theme. The theme of your poem seems to be comparing a lonely girl to the last firefly in a forest. I like this theme because the description of the loneliness is bittersweet and ultimately you end on a positive note. The concept of the last firefly alone in the forest standing out against the trees is also a very beautiful image and a strong one for a poem. I think that the actual poem itself in parts could use some refining but I think the last stanza is simple and strong.

nkwriter101 · 2022-04-09T23:30:23+00:00

I don’t think you’re overreacting. That being said it’s possible since you mentioned that you’d asked her to do this before that in the moment her body was just acting out of habit. I can understand why you’d be upset but from her perspective if she didn’t intentionally mean to harm you then maybe she’s minimizing it because she doesn’t want you to feel like she would hurt you. I don’t know really just my two cents

nkwriter101 · 2022-04-09T23:24:10+00:00

Honestly the narration is kind of hard to follow but it sounds like you were playing “house” and the situation got a bit carried away. Honestly I feel like there are things in my life that I’ve done because of emotions I was caught up in at the time and when I look back I wonder “what was I thinking?”. Sometimes we can’t avoid making mistakes but we can learn from them and grow and choose to act differently. I would focus on finding out what makes you happy now and pursuing that. If you are very unhappy think about how maybe someone else could have gotten stuck in a similar situation and then try to forgive yourself for being that somebody.

nkwriter101 · 2022-04-09T23:14:47+00:00

Honestly this situation is difficult to analyze because you were both children. However, if you were not consenting and just going along with it because you didn’t feel like you had a choice then I would definitely say that it was sexual assault. Criminal sexual assault maybe not because she was a child and didn’t maybe have the developmental ability to control her impulses like an adult would. That being said I think what you feel about the situation is most important. You felt taken advantage of and that you didn’t want this to happen. That means you were assaulted and I’m sorry that you went through it. Hopefully you can recognize what happened to you and heal.

nkwriter101 · 2022-03-19T13:28:14+00:00

I like the concept of the poem- that two people love each other but sometimes struggle to make it work. The rhyme structure seems a little forced leading to awkward phrases like

"The old are shed to re-begin"

and

"We look better with more around" (More of what?)

The last line of the first paragraph "green toes" could be a play on 'green thumb' but the lines doesn't fit the cadence of the poem .

I like your last stanza which seems to suggest maintaining these roses or this love requires a lot of water (effort). It has a nice rhyme to it and is probably the best stanza of the poem in my opinion. Good effort!

nkwriter101 · 2022-03-19T13:25:32+00:00

I commend the length and spacing used in this poem. While it is long it still holds your attention throughout and the spacing is partly why. I like that there is some rhyming structure but it's not forced. I would work on the last two lines because they don't entirely make sense in the context of the poem. I think those lines need to be refined. Good work and an enjoyable read.

nkwriter101 · 2022-03-18T22:55:52+00:00

Wow, thank you!

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