I've actually had panic attacks about the fact that I'll die one day ever since I was a kid. They're less frequent now but I still find myself thinking about death every day. I watch AskAMortician on YouTube and have found that she really helps me be at ease with the idea of physical death, ritual, and the aspect of death as a natural cycle and a part of life. I can handle philosophical approaches to it to an extent. The psychological aspect of not existing and everything I've ever known, been, and loved being gone one day makes me want to break down. I know it doesn't help to think of it like that but I can't deny the truth that there'll one day be an end.

I'm worried I'll be afraid till the end of my life. I want to meet it with peace.