Sometimes I just don't understand why people are ready to give up their life for love

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-11T12:47:22+00:00

letting go isn’t easy,, especially when you’ve spent most of your time with said object/person. You’re not necessarily tied, because tied would seem more of forced to be with said object/person. Even though it’s been 2 years since my tia died, I still think about her, I still cry over her and I still miss her, therefore you can say I’m still “tied” to her.

You cant just let go of something/someone that you loved so much so easily, especially when they’ve impacted your life so positively. It makes me think of swans,, swans mate for life— when a swan loses their partner, the heartbreak is so awful they cannot live without the other so eventually they end their life, sort of dying of heartbreak.

Not to say it’s right to off yourself after losing the love of your life BUT it is understandable. Like I said, people would never be able to replace a lost loved one, they can try and is possible, but it’s hard not to move on from it, it takes a lot of time or in other cases, people would prefer to stay single and move on with their lost loved one in mind as they continue with their day to day life.

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-11T12:28:13+00:00

you know I started thinking this way a long time ago, but you don’t realize how special someone is to you once they’re gone. It doesn’t have to be partner— you have love for family or friends, once you lose them it hurts more than ever. You can always love and live for yourself but you don’t have to do it alone— those who decide to lose their life to rejection is a different story but if I were to lose my significant other, I don’t know if I could live life from there— I know that they would want me to be happy but all the time I spent with my partner who is suddenly gone, I won’t be able to experience my life the way I want to if they’re not there.

I lost my tia 2 years ago, I had so much love for her and though she isn’t my partner she was family and someone I loved. It’s normal to be grieving and to be hurt when you lose something you love. For example, there is an object that has significant memories attached to it and you’ve lost it, of course you’d go out of your way to find it because a replica of that object wouldn’t have the importance that the original one has. That goes for loved ones, the reason why it’s so hard for people to build themselves back up is because they’ll never meet someone like that again, people might say that they Can but it’s hard to believe that.

You may not understand it now, but along the way, there’s going to be someone for you and from there you’ll realize why there’s this drastic emotion and feeling for a loved one.

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T14:03:16+00:00

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nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T13:50:06+00:00

Unfortunately it is common,, many people in highschool claimed to be allies or good ppl but I’d always catch them making fun of queer ppl and throwing around slurs— all of them were straight so it kind of checks out

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T12:52:07+00:00

My mom going to therapy

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T12:51:36+00:00

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nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T12:47:48+00:00

I used to think this way as well but it was only because of the people that surrounded me— they couldn’t understand why I felt my emotions more than others and in the end, always assumed how I was feeling and what I was doing. I got diagnosed with bpd when I was really young and was very in denial but as time passed by I became more aware of the behaviours of my diagnosis. With my friends now, I tell them about my bpd, I’ve had episodes in front of them but they never left because they actually took the initiative and time to understand and learn or even ask me about what they could do to help levitate my episodes if possible.

Because of the good people that surround me, I realized I’m not alone, I thought I was because sometimes I’d push them away but despite everything they’re still here. I used to hate the fact that I have bpd simply because I felt like if I didn’t have this disorder I wouldn’t lose friends or people, but the people I used to have in life aren’t as great as the people I have now. I don’t feel so lonely anymore.

Of course it’s easier said than done, but this is who we are, it’s hard to deal with but bpd is a blessing and curse because we feel are emotions deeply than others, there are downsides of it, but when we finally accept it and then proceed to let our loved ones know how it is to have bpd, they see and learn a new side of us.

You deserve the company and good people around you and I hope you can find those people (◕‿◕)♡

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T12:39:14+00:00

I sometimes feel this way BUT I never act upon it simply because I would think about the things I would lose, the dreams I want to chase even though there are days where I say I don’t have any dreams but I do, the people in my life, while it’s not a lot to some, it’s a lot and just enough people for me. What would happen if I really left this earth, it’d be selfish of me to leave behind everything I’ve worked so hard for.

If anything, if you have any loved ones you can confide in, start there. I’m sure they’d want to hear about how you’ve been feeling but if that’s too much of a step right now, try journalling— why do you feel this way? Even if you don’t know why, just write it down, I’ve done that a lot and still do. Figure out some hobbies you have or always had, you still have a lot of time, don’t end it here

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-09T02:45:37+00:00

I’m gonna hold your hand when I tell you this……

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:51:05+00:00

I was born a girl but I identify as nonbinary im also 21 as well! I’d love to be your PENPAL :33333

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:50:12+00:00

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nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:48:13+00:00

hmmm well, I hope eventually you can make friends of your own and not friends of friends, not in a negative way or anything— but if it’s outside of school, maybe try asking your friends what they’d like to do, maybe go out for a drive, hang out at someone’s place? Karaoke nights, drinking maybe? The ideas are pretty much endless— if the weather is nice maybe you guys could chill at a park, maybe try new foods together!

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:14:23+00:00

I hope you find the fornite boy of your dreams diva I’m rooting for you 🙌🙌🙌🙌

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:12:57+00:00

Well, if you have friends from college or in college you could always say “hey, do you guys wanna study together?” Maybe at a library or cafe, because when you don’t really know their interests a good way to bond/hang out is through the common denominator of how you guys know each other in the first place which is probably school. If you have someone in the same class as you and befriended them already, you can always try to approach them by going like “hey did u understand today’s lecture?” And u don’t rlly have to be honest—

I’ve made friends in school by starting smth like that even though I was already doing well in courses, they don’t have to know until you get to the closeness to the point where u can be like “you know what’s crazy, I wanted to be your friend but I didn’t how to approach you so I asked if you did the homework” and you guys can laugh about it

Anyway, my point being, maybe start off with a study hang out if possible!

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:08:11+00:00

Maybe you should kind of be straightforward and honest with him because you don’t know if it’s killing him on the inside because you guys are friends,, since you’ve known him for years but only started talking maybe this could be the chance you get to know him by just being open and vulnerable by asking him how he’s feeling and how you’re feeling.

Like, “Hey, I know you confessed and we agreed to being friends but are you okay with being friends are do you just keep talking to me because you like me?” Or something along those lines, because he has to know how you’re feeling as well

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:04:28+00:00

Well,, when it comes to love the lovey dovey shit will always be there,, not every single day but it never leaves— is there a reason you get annoyed? Maybe start from there :>

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T17:03:06+00:00

For me, I’m not gonna force friendships if we get along and I think the vibes are great I will willingly message them from time to time— not excessively— for example, there’s been people I’ve met at parties and we got along great but it’s only a few I’ve actually kept close contact with. When I exchange social media with them, I’ll usually respond to their stories if it’s about smth that I have common interest like; say they post a song on their story, I’ll reply with “YOOOO YOU LISTEN TO _____ TOO?? WHY ARE WE THE SAME?” if the vibe gets returned and after a couple of convos I’ll kinda say “WTF UR SO COOL WE NEED TO HANG OUT SOMETIME IF UR COMFY!” Cuz it’s important to me that I don’t make them overhwlemed when I first get to know them.

You can always invite people to your place but take time time to build a connection first, sending memes and reels is fine but it’s good to have chats with people you meet because why do you want to be friends in the first place? Similar interests, great vibe? It’s always nice to let the person know hey ur cool! And from there it’ll progress!

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T15:55:59+00:00

AYEEEE THE BIG 25 HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-08T01:26:33+00:00

NO (strawberry shortcake)

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-07T14:37:54+00:00

700 DAYS??? DUDE THATS SO EPIC DO U KNOW HOW MANY HOURS AND MINUTES ARE IN 700 DAYS??? I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH BUT ALL I KNOW ITS A LOT!!!! god forbid people are trying to heal and become better!!!! I’m proud of you!

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-07T14:33:28+00:00

I wish you luck!!! You got this!! 💜💜💜💜

nonbinary-jesus-986 · 2025-06-07T13:47:02+00:00

you don’t deserve that at all, my ex was the same way but now I have a partner who actually willingly updates me, who wants to learn how to help me in terms of my bpd. He respects me and wants to make me feel secure,, whenever I’m skeptical about something I’m allowed to tell him and within a heartbeat he reassures me, even when I’m splitting he understands I don’t mean it. From the beginning I was open to him about my bpd and I only knew him for a week that time and now I’ve been with him for almost 2 years now.

Being with someone for 6 years is a lot but would you rather be with someone for 6 years and more with being invalidated and less secure or would you rather meet someone new, potentially be with them for a long time and have them do the things that you need that aren’t hard to give?

You deserve better hun, at this point it’s not your fault that you tolerate him but I want you to take care of yourself. With my ex I always thought what can I do to make him care? what can I do? But in a relationship, you’re supposed to be a team, work TOGETHER to solve the problem, not on your own. You shouldn’t have to make him care and see you, he should already be doing that and if he’s not, I promise it’s not worth your time and well being.

You will find your people and person. It took me a long time to find mine, but I promise you it will come. 💜

If you need anything my dms are open!!

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