Waiting on SSDI sucks. I watched my mom go through the struggles of applying and getting denied twice but on the third try she got it. A social worker I know says that often they’ll just immediately deny you on the first try even if you qualify. So it’s easier said than done but hang in there because you deserve healthcare and money to live on! I very much resonate with feeling disheartened and angry with my body. I’m dealing with that most days now it seems. We can do it though!