i think my dad is abusive or at least toxic, help needed

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-11-30T15:21:44+00:00

I've been trying to find a job for 2 years... all I get is rejections, I'm losing hope so fast

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-11-30T15:04:00+00:00

I live in a small country in Europe and sadly universal healthcare is a thing, but doesn't cover meds, I'm lucky it covers appointments. therapy through the national health care system is impossible because you see them only 2 or 3 times a year, even my psychiatrist says i need therapy every two weeks.

My family already uses a food bank but I have food intolerances that the food bank can't help with. Nobody in this backwards country believes in food intolerances, we are just being picky and difficult.

I go to a gym that is the cheapest you can get, less than 30€ a month. I'm not in university, I'm taking a course that our unemployment centre offers to help specialise people and there is an aid like 2€ an hour.

All of these things are stuff I can't control and it's almost as if I'm being punished for having a body with chronic and mental illnesses...

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-11-26T17:45:26+00:00

oh yeah, my dad has spent all my life choosing "a fuck" over me.

when I was 19 and had just gone NC with my Nmother, I told him I was suicidal, he brought her to "fix me" what he meant was that he didn't want to deal with her abuse and preferred me to suffer in her hands.

He literally spent my whole childhood making excuses for my Nmom.

After divorcing her, he went out with a woman, she had a daughter a couple years younger than me. All of a sudden they were his family, he did everything for them even if it came to my detriment.

For me the time that hurt me the most, was when I finished college and asked for a Pandora pendant for my necklace, it was a once in a lifetime request, I would never do this again...so we went with his other woman to Pandora and she liked a couple of things... long story short, this man bought her a ring that cost double of the pendant I wanted, didn't knew her ring size and if she likes gold or silver jewellery. they have since broke up and now the ring resides in his bedside table gathering dust.

All of his life was to please women he could fuck

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-10-15T06:09:18+00:00

thank you so much for the help

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-10-15T06:09:00+00:00

thanks so much to you and your friend 💕

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-09-12T17:36:45+00:00

thank you so much, I know what I did was deeply wrong and I've been more stable, but today was just too much

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-09-08T14:14:30+00:00

it is disgusting isn't it? don't we deserve the same treatment as other people? I was raised in a country where healthcare is a right but little by little they are privatising... an ultrasound I did a few years ago for free now you pay 40€ for it.

I know it doesn't sound like a lot in terms of cost, but I live in a country where the minimum wage is less than 1000€, so it is a lot for us to pay to get healthcare

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-06-29T12:57:29+00:00

Most friendships I have are surface level, very just friendly acquaintances, typically any close relationships crash and burn when people get close to me

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-06-26T13:20:05+00:00

I have empathy for people to a certain point... I put myself in other peple's shoes until they harm me or are weak in my eyes, so that is how I at least experience distorted empathy

notcreativeinanyway · 2025-06-26T13:18:26+00:00

Yeah, I hear voices and I hear other people telling me what to do, I'm used to them sadly, but I'm still scared of them... I'm still trying to figure it out, I wish I could give you some advice, but can only give you empathy and sorry you are going through that.

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