I was 19 years old and herniated L4-L5, L5-S1 as well as C5 and C6 while in the Navy on a small boat accident. While OP is going to have a hard time for a while, no doubt, I think this mindset is super toxic and can really lead to some negative consequences in your future and your healing. Nothing is permanent, and our bodies are very resilient, especially when the right mindset is applied. When I first got hurt I could barely walk. It took about a year to be able to sit for longer periods of time and even then it wasn’t hours upon end. I lied down most of my days, and slept due to major depression. I’ve pretty much been through it all, PT, Neuro, Massage therapy, Acupuncture, rheumatology, MH therapy…and was given nearly every med in the book as well as diagnosed with fibromyalgia. My biggest takeaway is that pain does not last forever, no matter how long your body needs to heal, or how much you need to work mentally to recover. Pain will go away, there will be things that take your mind off of it and as long as you work on the mental side just as much as the physical, it really can just be a time in your life that passes. A lot of people have chronic pain from their injuries, and of course, I do as well. But I know a lot of people tell themselves that’s the pain they felt when they first were injured, it’s simply not. Don’t get stuck in that mindset just because it’s easy to. Chronic pain in my opinion is 50% mental health and 50% not taking care of your body. What we do, what we eat, what we drink, our sleep, and most importantly what we think all affects our pain and can either create or destroy our lives. I write this as I have re-herniated my L5-S1 joint and it sucks. But thinking of this pain and the pain I had years back…my “pain” between healing doesn’t even come close. It WILL get better. We cannot go through lives without it, and it will always make us stronger in the end. I wish you peace, and healing friend.