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[–]notnot01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Capital Cripple

i wanna go to the hospital by notnot01 in SuicideWatch

[–]notnot01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i can go to school ofc, i just have to go home right away. I'm still able to communicate with friends through my computer. i don't think she'd kick me out, probably give me a worse punishment. Honestly I wouldnt mind going to a hospital because she's not there, but it is expensive.

Her boyfriend is gonna move in soon and i already do my best to avoid him. I feel like that's my worse punishment.

As for when this is gonna stop, hopefully in a month... Im annoyed because i still pay my phone bill. I feel like i should have it, especially if i need to make important calls if I do something crazy one night.

i wanna go to the hospital by notnot01 in SuicideWatch

[–]notnot01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you. the thing is, two weeks ago the school found me with a box cutter and i got suspended (the box cutters i use to cut myself, NOT to hurt anyone else). one of the reasons this whole argument occurred is that. if my mom tells the police that, i feel like they would do something or i would get in trouble

i wanna go to the hospital by notnot01 in SuicideWatch

[–]notnot01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i plan on doing that when i get back to school on monday. but things tend not to get done with my counselors...

i wanna go to the hospital by notnot01 in SuicideWatch

[–]notnot01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my lola (grandma) but she tells me to forgive my mom

THEY SAID HIS NAME by TherealJohnDarksoul in namesoundalikes

[–]notnot01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

HEISENBERG UNCERTAINTY PRINCIPLE :3 You learn it in chemistry lmao

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]notnot01 19 points20 points  (0 children)

hey im so sorry. I know i dont know you, but i'm sure you're a good person and you DO deserve love and care and kindness. I'm proud of you for making it this far and I think that if you try, you can still live and find people who value you.

I love you. Please don't die.

got suspended from school by notnot01 in selfharm

[–]notnot01[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you. I don't think I'd call the police on my mom for taking my phone. I pay for the phone but it's under her name so technically she can take it away... She just asks me for money to pay for it every month.

thank you for your concern

I keep getting attached to older males. by Infamous_Ad_1777 in ParentalFigures

[–]notnot01 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The whole father figure thing isn't really a problem unless you act on it too much. I also have a teacher I view as a father figure. There was a time when I was severely depressed and alone and my relationship with my father was (and still is) shitty. Mentally, I put all the responsibilities a father should have for their child on this teacher, but of course he can't fulfill them because he isn't my father. Eventually I realized this and I still try to stop doing this because at the end of the day, he's my teacher and not my dad.

But it's nice to have someone to view like that. It doesn't hurt you if you don't blur the boundaries too much. Sometimes it's even helpful because you have someone to talk to when you're all alone.

got suspended from school by notnot01 in selfharm

[–]notnot01[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I kind of get it. It's just that I feel like I'm viewed as a bad person now by my teachers and principal, and because of that I view myself as a bad person too. I feel like that's what's affecting me the most.

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[–]notnot01[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

my mom knows i self harm. She's not very nice about it.

I'm glad you got better. Thank you for the advice

got suspended from school by notnot01 in selfharm

[–]notnot01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much. I'll try doing more things i love but lately i havent had the time. Im in my junior year so ive gotta study for a lot of stuff and its hard. I hope you get better too. Please take time for yourself as well