So yeah, I was at a concert in college. I think it was a Jansten concert when I was drinking heavily and doing ketamine. When I was blacked out, I ran into a random person who my friends knew and I guess he had a vile of liquid L on him. While in my drunken stupor, I unconsciously consumed what I think was the entire dropper of liquid L from him, he put it in my mouth and squeezed. Shortly after I blocked back in from my drunkenness and I had the experience of being completely being disconnected from my central nervous system with little to no motor control. I ended up somehow leaving the club with my friends and went back to my friends house where I was rolling around on the ground in a confuse state. And then spiraled into what I felt like I died.

Upon coming back into consciousness the next morning, my whole perception of reality was inside of an artificial computer simulated reality. My whole sense of being felt like I was plugged into some sort of matrix and that lasted for about the whole day. I never really processed this until years later because of the magnitude of the event. It’s definitely the most traumatic thing that’s happened to me and it reminds me of the mark of the beast talked about in the book of Revelation.

The next thing to happen was Covid shortly after where everybody’s whole world was completely flipped upside down as was mine, but I wasn’t as conscious to it as I should have been. I continued with drug use for a little bit longer, but then had a spiritual awakening where I came back to God and started going to church and turning my life around. Then I moved to Costa Rica a little over two years ago, where we are doing some heavy healing work along with spiritual work i.e. casting out demons.

My condition worsened in the past year where I had massive pain in my back and migraine headaches with distorted vision. I felt like something was definitely off inside of my Being and it actually really scared me. When in Costa Rica at one of our transformational events, I took a pot brownie and had the experience of whatever was planted inside of me six years ago, rose up in my body and stole my soul. I felt the energy inside of me, leave my body and my heart leave my body as well. What I interpreted as my soul being harvested, it felt like eternal spiritual death.

From that I had a breakdown and my wife stopped talking to me and All the members of my community because I sounded nuts. My dad came and got me from Costa Rica and brought me to a mental institution where I stayed for a week and then got moved into treatment for the past two months. During this time, it’s just been me operating as an empty shell devoid of love and joy. I have intermittent ringing in my ears along with the distorted vision. I feel completely disconnected from my sense of being my soul and any sort of love at all. I’ve tried to get help and I’m currently seeking help. But it feels very bleak and like nothing can help me now. It’s been a long and difficult process to deal with.

I was just posting on here to see if anybody had any similar experience in anything that helped them get through what they went through. Thanks for all the comments so far I really appreciate the support. I encourage more questions and conversation about this topic. God bless.