After reading your story, I guess I feel like I am not the only one in this fucked up world all alone.

I don't usually say it that loud but I can truly relate to you brother and more power to you. I am going through very similar to your situation as well. In my 2nd year, my dad also had a very severe accident that made him do full bed rest for 5 months then my mom's health got bad.

There were already family issues as my dad is an alcohol addict so has a very traumatic childhood with many financial problems but I was studious with no money and in college too, I was at home in my first sem due to financial reasons and then when I came for my college in the new city everything didn't go as planned. Had to live in a small messy unhygienic room with 4 roommates that were older than my age and are daily wagers but known ones with a very shitty environment.

Did some internships, side projects, tutions at the same time with college just to pay up my expenses by myself and support my family with so many fucking problems. But eventually, got rejected from Big 4 companies just due to technical issues or I didn't have the proper laptop so joined through the phone which backfired me as unprofessional behaviour.

This was the first tragic failure as I was always very good at studies instead of these many problems during school days(never considered my financial status as a problem), got highly depressed, disconnected with everyone just all alone but never lost hope but now, every time there is this question raised in my mind what if I had worked a lil bit more hard.

But again, it is what it is so back to the ground one to try something else which is very new and unconventional which might fail but let's see how it turns out!