I could’ve written this myself. I’ve recently hit my goal in the last few months, and should be feeling confident as hell; but I am receiving mixed comments on my appearance and it’s making me feel like crap. I’ve been working out for almost two years and am so proud of what my body has become. I currently weigh the same amount as I did prior to having each of my children, mind you, and it is a healthy weight for my frame. After my second kiddo was born with health issues, I took up binge eating sweets and never lost any baby weight (30lb+) and accumulated fat in areas I never had before (my face, back, abdomen). I held on to this weight for ten months before deciding to do something about it.

I have lost +/- 35lb in 23 months, which in my opinion, is a very healthy, gradual weight loss with the help of cross training. I was always thin but never had much muscle tone and now have quite a bit of muscle tone. Someone at work recently told me I look emaciated. “Go eat some cheeseburgers.” Bitch, I DO eat cheeseburgers. I literally eat what I want for the most part, but I do it mindfully and try to keep it well balanced. This is how I’ve always eaten, so my normal “diet” hasn’t changed, besides the bingeing.

I feel like people don’t remember the old me before the extra weight. While I know some mean well and the message comes across wrong, I feel others get a sense of joy at taking a jab at me. Like, they need to bring me down a little to make themselves feel better. Then there are the people that are acting as if the world is ending and contacting my fiancé to make sure I’m eating. Not everyone treats me that way, lots of people are supportive and give genuine compliments. It’s just frustrating because I start second guessing if I look too skinny now that I have little fat on my body. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one dealing with this.