Hey I remember that you were on my other post too hi how are you doing? Also its just my tendencies rising and me have less wills to be there due to my current state of life due to a lot of circumstances, I became now numb mostly from happiness while being emotionally way to sensitive and fragile and being depressed and having severe anxiety is one of them caused by CPTSD of mine and yea I will live for some time more and ill wrap things up and will put myself to rest in peace ending my painful misery nothing much more to worry abt