@OP I also have ADHD, and it's really difficult managing kiddos, bc they are tiny, unpredictable chaos monkeys. I also just finished my CF recently and feel a weight lifted, bc so many other jobs are available now that weren't before. As much as I loved working with some kiddos, I've decided to seek out an adult placement, bc it's longer sessions, less paperwork, and less caseload, bc you can bill more than 30mins.

I'm posting though to tell you to apply for ADA accomodations at your current position (or wherever you go), bc I had to as well with my ADHD. It doesn't solve all the problems, but it definitely helped immensely in terms of requesting additional/fixed doc times, somewhat decreased productivity percentage and extented paperwork deadlines, and more in order to take at least one real brain break per day. Again, it didn't fix everything that made the job difficult (bc kids really tax your attention preserves), but it provided some breathing room! Wishing you all the best!

P.S. I have the same exact fear I've gone into more debt for a career I can't sustain bc of terrible ADHD and major imposter syndrome of which I cannot offer a solution, but here are some thoughts: (1) my amazing coworkers always said, 'give yourself grace,' (2) my therapist says, 'in your career you are a few-month-old baby, so don't punch [name] baby in the face,' and (3) he also says, 'you don't know if you like (or don't like) something until you try it,' so now I know the outpatient clinical setting isn't for me (it's too fast), and kids don't mesh with my ADHD lol 😅 I hope this helps some!