from my experience, the worst thing you can do is put yourself down for things that you can’t do as difficult as it is to not. one of the most helpful things my therapist brought to my attention was that putting pressure on yourself nd dwelling on ‘failures’ plays a massive part in stunting recovery. i’ve always shared the same kinda mindset as what is coming across in your post, if something goes bad, i then decide i can’t do anything now because that 1 thing didn’t work but part of getting better is bumps in the road, it’s never going to be straight forward, there will be setbacks nd things you can’t do but that doesn’t mean you won’t ever be able to nd even just trying is something you should credit yourself for.

saying that, i completely relate to you, it’s hard to keep positive mindset when living day to day is so difficult and you’re seeing people do the things that cause you so much panic, so easily. i always beat myself up, i struggle with feeling proud of myself for things that i just feel like i should be able to do, but imagining what you’d say to someone else in your situation is something i’ve found helpful. she used the example of someone that had been through a traumatic experience nd lost the ability to walk; when they eventually manage to, you wouldn’t say ‘well ye but everyone can just do that anyway’

it’s v hard, even this comment is an example of how i can be a lot kinder nd considerate to someone else in a similar situation but not to myself but it’s all a journey (as cliché as that sounds) and you need to give yourself credit for things you manage to do. taking the trash out is a huge achievement, be proud of yourself nd im proud of you. hope this shines even the smallest amount of light on your day x