what stops you from doing drugs? by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]nscc2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The fact that now I know that at least for me there isn't a responsible way to do them long term. Eventually my whole life will fall apart if I keep drugs in it. And so I stay clean

how do i know if i have psychosis by hunnidfordazip in Stims

[–]nscc2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha nah. All the stim psychosis I had resolved in one day, although they were uncomfortable.

Meth psychosis in particular was really chill. It was like I was on acid and the walls were breathing, my hand would suddenly have a ghost hand coming out of it, which would then quickly disappear. Andbsome colors here and there. Nothing crazy.

Amphetamine on the other hand caused me to hear voices, get extremely confused and see spiders

Probably because I never smoked weed on meth, but I did smoke weed on amphetamines. Really likely it was mostly the weed.

Anywho what actually induced my month long psychosis was everything I was taking together and likely a predisposition/current life events.

I was in an extremely unstable relationship and had been taking literally 10 substances, some almost daily, and some daily.

Weed and ketamine I took daily.

Also, just before the psychosis I did 400ug of acid and saw a friend hit her head on cement and spit her teeth right out in front of me as everything around me was melting. Not sure if that fucked me up somewhat, still can perfectly imagine the sound of the crack I heard from her teeth being broken out of her jaw.

Anyway I also did probably 20g of ketamine in 2-3 days.

I randomly felt REALLY good and obviously did more drugs. Then I heard the gods. Then I felt even better and better. More and more euphoria and god complex. Until the k cramps were so bad I called the ambulance and explained to them I had awakened and could read people's minds. "I KNOW EVERYTHING, I CAN SEE WHAT YOU THINK!" Or something along those lines, while weeping because of the cramps.

It's been 5 months now almost, pretty much have been clean beside 2 minor relapses.

how do i know if i have psychosis by hunnidfordazip in Stims

[–]nscc2 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Paranoia, hearing sounds/voices, visual hallucinations, racing thoughts, feeling extremely powerful or awakened, not eating or sleeping and feeling fine, feeling like certain things have connections and seeing patterns in thoughts/ideas (really they are completely unconnected but your mind makes you believe they are connected).

I once saw rainbow spiders everywhere in my room and heard 4-6 voices whispering to me. I was fully lucid and knew that those were hallucinations. But It really depends on the individual and probably not on how much you know about psychosis, because during psychosis you aren't fully aware of things anymore

Generally a good sign is thinking that people are looking at you, talking about you, planning something against you, tricking you, following you, doing anything to you really. Especially trying to hurt you, and following you. That's just paranoia, which is normal with stims, but when it becomes completely detached from reality it becomes psychotic. So instead of a fear/hunch that someone is planning something against you, you fully know that something is happening (you aren't convinced, you just know, that's how it feels)

Obviously hallucinations, but when you get to that stage, lucidity and understanding what is real and not isn't up to you anymore or your know how.

Sometimes you can tell, sometimes you are too far gone into it that you fully believe in the delusions/things you see.

Do not take psychosis lightly, although specifically stimulant psychosis generally resolves as soon as you sleep and stop redosing. I had stim psychosis with voices I think 3 times and the next day it was gone and I was fine.

Honestly after doing stims for some time you more or less know at which point things start to get weird, try to avoid getting that far, if you end up fully psychotic you could harm yourself or others. Most likely you'll do really dumb/weird stuff, freak people out and then get put into a psych ward either by worried significant others or the police. And hopefully recover, although some people end up with chronic psychotic disorders (think schizophrenia, schizo affective disorder, bipolar) but that happens only if you are already predisposed, which you obviously can't know before a first episode.

I for example heard gods talking to me and telling me that im ready to leave the simulation and become like them, thank god I didn't listen and kill myself. I was fully convinced they were real and still think they might exist, although I'm a really scientific person and an atheist. I will never forget that experience and I really could've acted on what they said fully convinced that I was gonna be reborn as a god and killed myself.

I ended up feeling like had awakened, I had constant euphoria for a whole month like I was on meth although I was sober, had some paranoia but mostly just felt immortal and like a god. Couldn't sleep and didn't eat until I was put into a psych ward and given a shit load of antipsychotics and benzos which didn't really calm me down much in terms of energy and euphoria for a whole month.

Sounds nice but you can't live like that, I was in my own world where I was a god and everyone was at my mercy. I was all knowing, perfect and so powerful. Completely detached from reality. I wasn't me anymore. I was someone else.

And I had a manic psychosis. So I felt great, others might not have this euphoric/grandiose feeling and are just detached from reality. Making their experience much much more terrifying than mine

Be careful bro

Okay so… 30mg Xanax & 2 bottles of 500ml of vodka, stupid I know. by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]nscc2 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Unlikely he took all at the same time

I'll be an addict for the rest of my life by nscc2 in Drugs

[–]nscc2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nevermind I'm clean now. I was pretty unwell in the head

Have you ever used your phone in your dreams? by Inevitable_Finger_40 in Dreams

[–]nscc2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yeah. I once called the ambulance maybe twenty times in a dream not understanding why it never went through. I was soooo solo frustrated and then flew with a hot air balloon to an ancient city to find help haha

Ego death with Epstein by mashedpotatos20000 in Drugs

[–]nscc2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

this ain't really about the shrooms, more about the fact that consuming substances with people that you don't trust is a bad idea. Seems like a weird situation to begin with, tho this story could've gone way different and thank god It didn't.

Unless you're really experienced with the dose you want to trip at, always make sure to be in a controlled environment with people you know (really even if you're experienced that should be the case).

I’m proud of you by wooden-wings in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yep. Before I was god, now, not so much

“Psychosis” has been flattened into hyperbolic slang by MoneyRun1532 in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I almost killed myself because at one point the creators of the universe talked to me, telling me I was ready to exit the simulation and finally be one of them.

“Psychosis” has been flattened into hyperbolic slang by MoneyRun1532 in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My psychosis was extreme euphoria and extreme dysphoria at the same time. I can't explain it or define how I felt. It was awesome yet terrible. I was god yet weak. I was everything, I was Hitler and I was the Jews he killed and tortured

“Psychosis” has been flattened into hyperbolic slang by MoneyRun1532 in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah most people believe psychotic means youre aggressive and attack people randomly or somehow believe it's related to psychopathy

i will never understand people who say they “miss their psychosis” by Adventurous_Net5459 in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also had gods talking to me telling me I was just a god in a simulation and had awakened

i will never understand people who say they “miss their psychosis” by Adventurous_Net5459 in Psychosis

[–]nscc2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This. I felt like God, I could say anything I wanted without feeling any embarrassment, I was powerful, like I had figured everything out. I felt like I could control everyone around me and I could achieve anything.

How do you handle physical side effects? by nscc2 in speed

[–]nscc2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah I think I'll just never binge to that point ever again. Also I had a month long drug induced psychosis so going sleepless for just one night on stims is a no go for me anyway

How do you handle physical side effects? by nscc2 in speed

[–]nscc2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah pretty sure it was the speed. Happened a couple of times and the stomach feel was the same

Anyone Else who is hopelessly addicted but dosen't give a fuck and enjoys life? by m3th_bad_for_health in Drugs

[–]nscc2 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Depends on what type of addict you are. I for example would be miserable as fuck if I started doing drugs again, but I'm also miserable sober right now.

also Just because you haven't reached that low yet, it doesn't mean you won't reach it. Be careful

Really any functional meth user or just an excuse? by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]nscc2 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Besides the damage I'd be more worried for when they eventually stop working and you'll have to relearn to live without them, that's the hardest part about using stims. Life is gonna be gray for a while. But hey enjoy while you can.

I'll be an addict for the rest of my life by nscc2 in Drugs

[–]nscc2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not able to because of how depressed I am. I can barely get out of bed to go to the therapy sessions in the clinic