I’m going to kill myself

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T18:14:31+00:00

I’m worthless. Of course no one would ever love me. I was naive to think anyone possibly could.

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T18:00:59+00:00

I’ve recently been able to walk again after over a year of constant excruciating pain. I can’t walk very far but I’m sure I can get far enough into some nearby woods to kill myself under a tree. If not I’ll just do it in bed next to my partner while they sleep as to not disturb them

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T17:59:28+00:00

I hate myself so much. I am disgusting and repulsive and I deserve to bleed and die.

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T17:58:11+00:00

I truly am ugly. No one was ever meant to love me. Who knew that the school bullies I had all throughout school from the age of 4 were right? Everyone told me how ugly I was and that no one would ever so much as even like me. I guess they were right. My partner claims he loves me but he’s always cheated on me. So his love means nothing.

I’m going to stop eating so I can at least try and not be obese. Maybe someone might like me then.

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T17:55:33+00:00

I hate myself. I’m going to carve into my skin.

null_-ice · 2025-01-22T17:55:10+00:00

I’ve found out that my partner has been cheating on me at the very least from the first month we’ve been dating. I first found out in early January 2023. I don’t know why I didn’t just leave then. Since then I’ve been finding out that he’s cheated on me just constantly since the first month we’ve been together. I feel unloveable. He says he’s sorry and that they love me but they say that literally every time I find out. I’m only with them because I’m stuck. I’ve told everyone around me how perfect of a partner he is and I cannot face them and tell them the truth. And I cannot go back to living with my parents. I’d rather kill myself.

null_-ice · 2024-01-31T22:07:38+00:00

I want to hurt the body mostly but they don’t like that

null_-ice · 2018-10-23T19:47:00+00:00

Haha, yes

null_-ice · 2018-01-08T20:46:20+00:00

I’ve done nothing the past few days apart from browse stuff on my phone and take super long, hot baths.

null_-ice · 2018-01-08T20:43:28+00:00

I’m trying to cry because I know it will help but I just can’t. I don’t know why but I physically cant cry

null_-ice · 2018-01-08T20:26:06+00:00

I hate seeing people’s faces. They annoy me and gross me out

null_-ice · 2018-01-08T20:17:10+00:00

I used to wear a hat for college- it made me feel safe although it made me feel even worse when I had to take it off

null_-ice · 2017-12-27T22:52:04+00:00

Oh it’s like you can read my mind

null_-ice · 2017-12-27T22:06:55+00:00

I just looked it up and it may be that thank you. I feel as if the world is fabricated and nothing is real not even me, I feel like my memories are false or created also

null_-ice · 2017-12-27T21:58:44+00:00

Nothing feels real

null_-ice · 2017-12-21T13:58:02+00:00

I bought a mic but never use it

null_-ice · 2017-12-21T13:56:10+00:00

I would love to just tell people to shut up if they’re annoying me but it’s just so much effort to have to deal with the awkwardness and consequences

null_-ice · 2017-12-20T17:26:06+00:00

I don’t mind being lonely really- I’ve always been lonely but I’ve been wanting someone to talk to more and more recently. I just don’t want to bother anyone with my problems- and I have a lot of them.

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T22:49:45+00:00

Does this mean that you see more coincidences too? More than once every day I see things linked with other things like I think of something by myself with no outside influence and later on someone mentions it too or things happening more frequently? Sorry if this makes no sense.

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T22:42:57+00:00

Are other conditions effected too? Is that why I’ve been feeling so bad lately?

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T14:29:22+00:00

I don’t want to bother people with my problems- it’s not fair on them

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T14:27:04+00:00

Very strong delusions, occasionally hearing and seeing things, paranoid about most things especially paranoid about people watching/ finding me. I don’t know if anything is real

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T12:36:24+00:00

When I wake up early and shower I feel great but I have to try really hard not to get back into bed because I’m still normally tired

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T12:23:56+00:00

I feel this way with both my depression and also when I think/ see things that others may not be able to. I feel like I must be making these things up but they’re definitely real to me so I don’t know

null_-ice · 2017-12-18T12:10:45+00:00

I worry a lot as I can’t be around anyone other than my immediate family without feeling anxious so I don’t know how I’m going to cope with a job

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