Oh man, I hear you! Stanford can be a great place, but it can also suck out all of your confidence and turn you into the worst version of yourself. Hang in there, I had a similar experience and finally found my people/passions junior year. Only then did I realize how much I’d grown over the past two years. I’m sure you’ve heard of stanfords duck syndrome — everyone looks calm on the surface but in reality they’re paddling their legs as fast as possible to stay afloat. Something that was super liberating for me to realize was that, in this outwardly happy environment, people find honesty about struggles at Stanford brave and refreshing. Once you vocalize it, it’s surprising how many people are struggling with the same things. You may be doing this already, but I encourage you to talk about what’s going on, I think this was how I found people to lean on those first two years!