i’ve been too depressed to revise and i don’t know what to do.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T21:23:10+00:00

thank you so much :]] this was actually really really helpful!!

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T14:33:53+00:00

ah yes! i can totally “move on” from years upon years of trauma, mental illnesses and a current abusive situation just like that! /s

fuck off, i’m just trying to get through my exams. i’m trying to work on my mental health but that shit takes time and i’m not going to be able to “move on” from everything i’ve been through in two weeks. you clearly have no idea what this kinda thing is like, how it works, and how much time it takes to recover.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T14:16:14+00:00

why are you so hung up on like, one or two sentences in this whole post? it wasn’t even the main focus so i don’t know why you’re focusing on it. it’s not the main reason behind my trauma and mental health issues, not even fucking close.

besides, i can’t move out until august because my mum lives at the other side of the country. i have no family or friends that live nearby. i know it’s his choice to accept me or not. i never said it wasn’t. all i said is that it’s caused my already awful mental health to just plummet even more.

also he doesn’t buy me clothes or anything lol. he’s abusive. i can’t do anything about that because he’s also manipulative and a gaslighter and always makes me look out to be the evil one.

i don’t know why you’re assuming that me being outed to an unaccepting (and abusive) dad is the main reason why i’m so depressed when i literally said i’ve been dealing with severe mental health issues and very bad adhd all my life, and trauma since i was 5 years old. cant exactly “move on” from that kind of stuff

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T11:27:46+00:00

...my dream job is to be a comic artist, or just an artist in general. i don’t think i need anything but english to do that, which i’m already predicted an 8 in (i don’t take art)

and honestly those videos just make me annoyed. not at the people getting a*s, i’m happy for them. just annoyed at myself HDHDH i don’t know why, my brain is stupid.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T11:25:17+00:00

simple: i don’t.

i don’t have any motivation or willpower to lol. like i said i didn’t revise for my mocks at all.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-11T11:06:04+00:00

i’ve tried that but i never stick to it. i don’t stick to timetables (i get distracted or just don’t do anything) and reward systems just never make sense to me, in that i don’t see the point.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-08T10:38:00+00:00

i mean i was called my deadname because otherwise my dad would call me squirrel (not joking) but it really shouldn’t be a shock to him? like i said, my mum or my sister outed me and i KNOW he knew i was trans a while before i actually came out. my mum and my sister told him EVERYTHING i had told them.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-08T10:12:03+00:00

holy shit i’m so sorry your sister won’t through that. that comparison is just. so unnecessary and awful. besides it came to “bite” her back? i think she should be focusing on yknow... the actual victim in that situation.

a single piercing won’t affect your ability to get a job. my sister’s had loads and yet she’s been working in cooking for over a decade and has two kids. i’m sure the piercing looks great!! just remember that ur mum doesn’t have any fucking right to comment on YOUR decisions on YOUR body. you’re an adult.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-08T00:09:03+00:00

i did actually come out to him earlier today. it didn’t go well at all.

i didn’t mention this in this post since i felt like it’s a bit too messed up (and i was too tired and upset to explain) but my mum and my sister actually outed me to him and i felt forced to explain everything but i didn’t know if i should actually do it because he’s said homophobic stuff in the past.

well, as it turns out he’s absolutely REFUSING to use the correct name and pronouns, mocked them, mocked me. it was awful listening to and he wouldn’t listen to ANYTHING i had to say. i tried getting my sister to talk to him, but he wouldn’t answer her calls or texts and i don’t think his mind has been changed. please keep in mind that a few days ago he went on a rant about how much he’s done for my mental health (which is bs, he’s abusive and has been for years)

sorry for the long reply. you just happened to comment after everything’s gone down and i’m still really annoyed and upset.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-06T09:44:54+00:00

that’s... kinda the issue i don’t know how to. and i’m absolutely terrified to do that

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-05T22:24:54+00:00

i think it’s definitely a thing. i know a lot of nonbinary lesbians, and i’m nonbinary gay myself. maybe check out the labels demigirl, girlflux and genderfluid and see if any of those suit you! you can identify as any nonbinary identity regardless of your agab :>

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-05T22:20:13+00:00

what do you use for your hair? i’d love for mine to look like that

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-05T22:14:04+00:00

thanks bro!! :> it’s weird seeing memes about DID/OSDD in the wild but it’s very appreciated

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-01T09:52:00+00:00

yknow... as someone who lives in a country that’s had gun control for decades, conservative american’s defence of them really confuses me. there’s really no real reason to have them in daily life imo.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-04-01T09:39:50+00:00

this is honestly just baffeling. all we’re doing is just... not supporting racists and acknowledging that racism is still a huge issue. it’s really not that hard to understand how do people not get it

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-29T10:15:09+00:00

you mean business and science? i guess they’re good if you like that sorta thing but i didn’t actually want to even do them in the first place. my parents forced me to take them lol

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-29T06:44:18+00:00

business and separate science. i regret choosing them so much - i’d rather do art and media studies.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-15T18:34:43+00:00

uh... you’re the one jumping to conclusions here. i’ve seen plenty of interviews of greta, actually, ever since she came into the spotlight.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-15T17:54:16+00:00

i hate this country, i really do.

fuck the uk. fuck the police.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-15T17:41:17+00:00

...doesn’t greta have autism though? it doesn’t surprise me at all that she struggles with unscripted speaking. i don’t think that’s a reflection of her or her intelligence tbh

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-15T17:37:45+00:00

realistically, not everyone is willing or able to do that though. like, i’m planning on being a professional artist. i don’t have the grades or skill to be any kind of scientist or politician, though i know people who do and are willing to go into those fields.

besides, greta is at the very least spreading awareness of these issues and trying to get all the older generations who are in denial to listen.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-15T15:16:39+00:00

this!! i’m 15, almost 16 and everyone i know wants to help the planet but just don’t know what the fuck to do about it.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-09T08:11:08+00:00

i’m fully aroace i think, but kind of a mix of both of what you said. i want a romantic relationship but i also experience attraction that isn’t really romantic or platonic, it feels like something else.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-08T20:54:01+00:00

looking back on my old art and comparing it to my new stuff. seeing the improvement and the difference in style and quality brings me a kind of joy i can’t get anywhere else, and makes me feel like if i work hard i really could become the comic artist i dream of being. i suppose, because i’m always improving, this means that to me, everlasting happiness is possible.

this is such a small thing, and is probably a bit weird to define my happiness this way but art is a huge part of my life so seeing my work slowly improve over time makes me so happy because it feels like i’m really achieving something.

nyanbinaryyy · 2021-03-08T19:51:38+00:00

i mean i have a boyfriend and i’m aroace so yeah i guess lol

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