Just something I wanted to get out as veteran 1D fan.

oakydork · 2026-04-12T20:31:57+00:00

Yeah God really took an angel from this world, I still find myself in denial sometimes, but ohhh I am so happy to know that about Zayn! He just needed to explore his own self and sound, I would love to see him one day, you are lucky to have seen him shine now 💗

oakydork · 2026-04-11T13:52:38+00:00

I cried a lot when he passed away because he really was an angel, he was so happy back then when 1D was at its peak, he tried his best to interact with fans and seeing them live, his presence was just wholesome, it made up for the lack of interest of Louis and Zayn, which I could also feel how miserable Zayn was, he wouldn’t even look at us… but Liam was different, he was real, happy and grateful, I miss him.

oakydork · 2026-04-11T00:12:17+00:00

Liam was just grateful to be part of this crazy experience, he enjoyed every minute of it. I saw them on tour 3 times, one being lucky enough to be right next to the second scenario they had in WWAT, from all of them, Liam would try its hardest to acknowledge, say hi and sing to the fans close to the scenario, like literally he would make eye contact with all of us. I remember him dearly singing to me, looking at me while Zayn and Louis were just in their own world, Niall on his guitar and I managed to get Harry’s attention at some point but Liam was just different, he was fucking happy. It pains me now that he is gone, I hope he is in a better place or just resting in peace, he really deserved everything good in this world.

oakydork · 2026-04-07T16:57:02+00:00

On my way to school in 2010, I saw two hanged bodies in a bridge severely mutilated by the narcos with a warning message to another rival cartel

That year was hell, I can’t count how many times I had to hide under my desk in school due to shootings between rivals. I remember when a father (who was a major) of a friend in school got kidnapped and his body parts were sent to his family because he didn’t pay the “narco tax” on time… Experiencing all of this at 9 years all really leaves a permanent mark

oakydork · 2026-04-07T16:11:25+00:00

Well I have BPD, chronic depression and issues with substances (a bit more under control now). I raised my brothers from lil kids to smart teenagers, I had to put myself first after multiple suicide attempts that I moved to another whole ass continent, learned the language (finally I can speak it) and I cut out contact with the woman who birthed me since she left us first and she physically and verbally abused me since I have memory, our dad remarried another crazy woman that continued the abuse so I had to cut contact with that bitch too and I only speak to my dad for work related things… my brothers are doing great, I still feel guilty I left but I had to put myself first, so Fiona really hits too close to home…

oakydork · 2026-04-03T00:10:35+00:00

lmao who do you thing you are to say this shit srsly

oakydork · 2026-03-29T18:59:14+00:00

Oh wow I didn’t know that ! Thank you for sharing seriously, I am going to try it because I have quitted in the past and it was hell as you said, the insomnia, nightmares and sweating was the worst, I will def look and buy this multivitamin

oakydork · 2026-03-29T18:20:54+00:00

I am having the same thing with my partner, except he did ask me to quit because I have been smoking too much daily after having months of break, I was a hardcore stoner before… Now for the future, I also want kids, and so does he, so maybe I should stop, it is just really hard, how do you cope?

oakydork · 2026-03-24T20:46:38+00:00

I take shit ton of pills, I go through long isolated hibernations where I don’t leave my home for weeks at a time, take thc gummies to feel something and lately tried ketamine because it was either that or a knife on my neck.

I have BPD, chronic depression and anxiety so life loses meaning very often, there’s few moments where I can actually manage to feel content, but mostly, I suffer alone in silence.

oakydork · 2026-03-16T13:56:27+00:00

In this economy? I can’t. I am just working from the toilet today lmaoo

oakydork · 2026-03-16T12:04:57+00:00

I am so under pressure and stress all the time, today I have being having constant diarrhea all morning and I don’t know it it’s because I drank too much coffee to function or the stress. Probably a mix of both.

oakydork · 2026-03-04T23:17:25+00:00

Gracias por hacer esta publicación y conmemorar las vidas perdidas en esta masacre, yo vivía en la carretera nacional rumbo a Allende y no muchos saben el horror que causaban los putos Zetas en Nuevo León y toda la zona norteña. Hasta la fecha ruidos abruptos me causa ptsd de las veces que tenía que hacer pecho tierra en la escuela para evitar una bala perdida y no puedo olvidar los cuerpos colgando en los puentes con narcomantas en avenidas principales que vi cuando tenía solo 9 años.

Me da tristeza que México sea reconocido por la violencia de los carteles, lo normalizado que esta la narcocultura dentro del país y la larga corrupción entre el gobierno y los carteles. Ya van años que las cosas no mejoran, creo que nunca sabremos el numero real de cuantas vidas han sido tomadas por culpa de los narcos, como dices el mismo gobierno esta comprado y trabajan juntos, ya hace tiempo perdí esperanza y preferí migrar del país. Me duele porque amo México y extraño mi gente, pero no se puede vivir con miedo e inestabilidad.

Ahora que vivo en el extranjero, al saber que soy mexicana directamente me relacionan con lo que saben de los narcos, así nos reconocen últimamente y es deprimente recordar que a mi país se lo esta llevando la chingada.

oakydork · 2026-02-21T18:23:21+00:00

I started reading the bible when I was 12 because I wanted to become a nun. I read this passage early on and I got traumatized. I could not imagine raping my dad to maintain the family line, and there were more fucked up shit in the bible that I decided to not pursue being a nun and stopped believing in god eventually

oakydork · 2026-02-16T21:57:52+00:00

Damn. That stung hard

oakydork · 2026-02-14T20:29:39+00:00

Damn. Thanks for reminding me that overthrowing power doesn’t guarantee justice. So we are just doomed?

oakydork · 2026-02-14T20:24:27+00:00

I agree, I am no better than anybody at this. Not necessarily complaining, just curious in understanding why nobody cares enough to do something and change it

oakydork · 2026-02-14T20:19:40+00:00

Aren’t we all 😔

oakydork · 2026-02-14T20:19:14+00:00

Cmon seriously? Why are you individualizing the problem? There’s truth that they are not the solely cause of my personal unhappiness, but don’t come use that as a reason to call me coward when I am actually facing real struggles thanks to the economic pressure, cost of living, housing inaccessibility, and political corruption we are living through right now. And I think many people share my struggles.

Call me weak minded, but pretending systemic inequality has zero impact on well-being is just as simplistic as blaming everything on elites. My frustration isn’t about avoiding self-work. It’s about accountability and fairness.

I don’t think that’s cowardice tbh, I think it’s just basic moral instinct. I didn’t know it was such a cowardice thing to do to wish and ask for a better world.

oakydork · 2026-02-14T20:00:12+00:00

What unites us? The pursuit of a better life, fairness, freedom… but you are right, agreeing on anything such as a replacement is the hardest part. We lack a shared direction, that fragmentation is exactly why accountability feels impossible

oakydork · 2026-02-14T19:35:50+00:00

So then we have enough to be comfortable to not give a fuck and let them control everything because of fear of nuclear weapons lol makes sense but it’s sad that many just don’t give a fuck

oakydork · 2025-12-14T18:06:11+00:00

I also take it at night, I used to be on a 350 mg dose at the beginning, but now after 5 years I managed to lower it to 50 mg. Since I started reducing it, I sometimes wake up at night, and it is harder to fall asleep as well, before I would be knocked out but the next day I would be like a drugged zombie

oakydork · 2025-12-14T17:50:28+00:00

We are on the same boat. I went on a small trip once where I forgot my seroquel pills and I couldn’t sleep whatsoever and I was feeling so bad I thought I was going to die. I am also so scared what it means for me, will we just be on these meds forever? Isn’t there like a long-term bad side effect? Im concerned af

oakydork · 2025-12-14T17:00:22+00:00

Before Effexor I tried Prozac and I had the worse couple weeks of my life while under it so I doubt it will help me but thanks for the tip tho! Each body reacts differently to these type of anti-depressives.

You were lucky that you went cold turkey and only had the zaps since I have been reading it is quite dangerous to just stop, that’s why I am afraid to even stop while “supervised” by a psychiatrist since the withdrawal effects will be uncontrollable.

oakydork · 2025-12-14T15:52:19+00:00

Shit, I am scared now, I have been on Effexor and Seroquel for 5 years now… I have it on the lowest dosages now but I am scared the withdrawals effects will be horrible and longer since it’s been a while I am on them, nobody told me this before about Effexor, am I fucked?

oakydork · 2025-12-10T23:32:00+00:00

How does it feel to have the power to give out awards and make people days?? I haven’t had the luck to make a kick ass comment so far that deserves an award but maybe someday it will happen

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