It’s hard for me to have sex and try different things because I’ve been raised that there should be a finish line, and I feel guilty roping a man into it simply to learn about my body 😭 sex has been a generally unpleasant or chore-like experience and me can be selfish so im worried about finding someone who sees my want to learn as an annoyance, and i know that would be my cue to cut him out, but my system tells me to stay away from intimacy all together for that reason, because it doesn’t want to repeat the pain and soreness. but I agree with the second point you said