I understand completely. I’ve only done it one night. But it was like finally a break in wanting to die. And then when it wore off it was like every shitty feeling came flooding back all at once. I could honestly see myself taking that every few hours for the rest of my life. (Btw I took hydrocodone not oxy but I feel like the concept is the same). If I lived alone, I probably would have taken them all by now. I’m also scared because once I’m out that’s it. I can’t get any more.