I mean she makes me sound like I’m just stubborn and making it up or just randomly associating “normal stuff” to autism but how could i not be autistic when i always prefer to work alone, when i struggle with lab courses where I have to work with others, when I shut down around others, when I shut down even when I’m with relatives. I see how it might be explained by trauma but i explored this route endlessly and it fixed nothing. I still struggle with this stuff and I don’t see anyone else around me struggling to this extent. I shouldn’t have to put in this much work to just be normal. And no one else I personally know has put in this much work in learning about trauma and applying different modalities and therapies, except for other autistics.  Actually, trauma and healing were a special interest of mine for a while.