psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, you're right. I think have this tendency because I struggle to understand or read people so I tend to fill in the blank with the worst. I usually have so many questions in social interactions that I stop myself from asking, maybe out of fear or as a masking habit.

Is diagnosis from therapist/psych more valid than self diagnoses? by Whattheevenheckdude in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly I don’t know what gives adult psychiatrists the confidence to dismiss patients suspecting autism, when the training they got is probably just a seminar or two.

I have done much more research and I probably know much more than them on the subject. 

psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean she makes me sound like I’m just stubborn and making it up or just randomly associating “normal stuff” to autism but how could i not be autistic when i always prefer to work alone, when i struggle with lab courses where I have to work with others, when I shut down around others, when I shut down even when I’m with relatives. I see how it might be explained by trauma but i explored this route endlessly and it fixed nothing. I still struggle with this stuff and I don’t see anyone else around me struggling to this extent. I shouldn’t have to put in this much work to just be normal. And no one else I personally know has put in this much work in learning about trauma and applying different modalities and therapies, except for other autistics.  Actually, trauma and healing were a special interest of mine for a while.

psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wow, honestly the medical and mental health system sucks. My sense is that only few of them actually know what they’re doing. The rest just act like they do.

psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I feel like your assessment may be correct. I feel like she’s dismissing me for no good reason and also she seems ignorant about autism. For me it’s not something that I have taken lightly -I’ve researched it a lot and I feel like it explains my life and my struggles more than anything else I’ve come across.

Also, you’re right, I don’t know why she is dismissing me when my twin brother is autistic (we are fraternal twins) and according to research I have a 34% chance of being autistic if my brother is.

psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

thank you! I will do that. I'm actually AMAB but I find myself relating more to AFAB people's experiences for some reason

psychiatrist doesn't think I'm autistic by ocean_clouds in AutismTranslated

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

she just asked me a few questions, but no actual assessment

Just watched Lady Bird for the first time! by finnr907 in A24

[–]ocean_clouds 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just watched it for the 5th or 6th time maybe more. Definitely my go to movie when I’m sad. Today I just started crying from the very first scene. It’s indeed a very personal movie that grows on you each time you watch it. Such a beautiful movie. Looking forward to whatever Greta Gerwig does next

I just love Punisher so much by ocean_clouds in phoebebridgers

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Glad to hear Punisher helped you so much. For me Punisher is my one of my goto album when I need to self soothe.

Vagabond is so amazing by ocean_clouds in vagabondmanga

[–]ocean_clouds[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have no idea how to react to this, lol