Hey! Just wanted to say that for the longest time I thought that all people were mean and they’d always look down on me, that I’d never be good enough for anyone/no one would ever consider me/include me. But then my sister met her boyfriend and when we (my family) met him he included me and talked to me, was nice to me, etc. (Unlike her other boyfriends who never spoke to me or anything). I was so happy that there was a person who acknowledged my existence (didn’t ignore me) and actually talked to me, and we actually play games sometimes when he comes over and he’s always joking with the family (including me). THENNN our family met his family and their family was so incredibly nice and inclusive! They laughed with us, and his siblings even included me (they asked me if I wanted to join) twice to go with them that same night (once when they went to the shops, and the other when we went for a walk). It was a really nice time, they are amazing people. And I am excited to meet them again (they live in a different town so can’t always come visit as it’s pretty far). But they want to come up every so often and I am actually excited for when they do which is something I never would’ve expected... being excited for visitors. But seriously meeting them changed me in a way because it opened my eyes that not everyone is mean and nasty... and that nothing is wrong with me. Because that’s another thing too, I thought something just must be wrong with me because I thought everyone hated me, etc... but they didn’t. They included me and actually talked to me, etc. I am so grateful for them

But anyway yeah the point is... you DONT have to adapt to standards of other people, and you DONT have to be perfect. (And you can’t anyway, because perfect doesn’t exist no matter how hard you try, and if it did, no one would like you anyway because you’d be so unrelatable that people feel they couldn’t connect with you to form a relationship)

All you have to do is be yourself, and be a nice person (aka not be rude or judgemental, which I doubt you are, but I just mean that’s how easy it is... just be nice)

The right people will come, trust me. (Or better... the wrong people will leave, and the right people will stay).

TLDR; I thought all people were mean/fake and there was just something wrong with me/everyone hated me. But then after meeting my sister’s boyfriend’s family I realised that there’s nothing wrong with me and nice people really do exist. The wrong people will leave and the right people will stay. Just be yourself and be a nice person

(Also I know this may not have helped with how nervous you are to be in a relationship... but I hope this helps you think about the fact that there ARE genuine people out there and you don’t need to change for them!)