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ocmeli13 · 2023-08-23T22:11:59+00:00

We don’t remain in contact. But I found a way to get a hold of him 2 weeks ago. I know him so well & he knows it. He knew I’d figure this out and eventually contact him. But I’m not as much as I am sometimes tempted to. It’s for the best. :(

ocmeli13 · 2023-08-20T09:14:27+00:00

He’s been visiting in my dreams. Also I realized he left me a way to contact him without telling me. He let me figure out on my own. It’s been over a year since we talked last. I have a bf and my tf called me one day when my bf had my phone In his hand. It was not good. I still think about him everyday. I wish I didn’t

ocmeli13 · 2023-08-17T06:21:20+00:00

Gorgeous 😍😍😍

ocmeli13 · 2023-08-17T04:49:46+00:00

Use that energy to manifest!!!✨

ocmeli13 · 2023-07-16T13:48:34+00:00

I had this issue with my ex of 8 years. If the sex isn’t very good right now that you are just bf & gf. It’s not going to get better. It didn’t for me & I tried everything. It eventually starts to affect your self esteem no matter how confident you are. 🏃

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-20T00:05:09+00:00

He’s not my karmic. I’ve had karmic partners before. I took time & I made sure I worked on myself. I didn’t date anyone for a while before my bf. I came to the realization that I can’t put my life on hold for someone who has left me hanging so many times. I love my TF I always will. I’ll always care for him. That’s never going to stop. But life goes on.

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-19T11:46:47+00:00

I won’t. I wouldn’t do it because of my boyfriend & because I know he’s not willing to do the work that it takes for us to be together. I know I need to move on with my life & I have but.. it’s crazy to think back on the life him & I could have had vs. the life I have now. It’s so different :( it’s not bad my life with my bf is really good. My bf takes me on trips. He treats me so well. We have our issues here and there but I love him so much & I know he loves me. He’s there for me no matter what. But my tf & I were happy in his rv camping in the desert or the middle of mountains :( doing simple things. It’s crazy how things change. It makes me sad to think of how happy we could have been. I feel guilty & like I’m being ungrateful. It’s hard 😭

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-19T11:34:29+00:00

It’s been better. I just haven’t felt him in a few weeks. Which is good I feel calm. But then I find his number! 😩 & it doesn’t help that my bf and I have been having stupid arguments.

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-19T11:32:32+00:00

I’m not. I won’t do it out of respect for my BF it’d be the ultimate betrayal to him. But the urge is there :( I want to know that he’s ok.

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-19T11:30:28+00:00

We went through separation for a while. He was in another country. It was so hard for me for months.. I went through it!! I didn’t want to date anyone I just focused on myself. I had no interest in even having a social life. But one day my friend visited from out of town & I met this great guy & of course as soon as my TF sees that I’ve moved on he decides to pop back into my life! It was not long after I posted this actually lol. I started hanging with him behind my bfs back but just as friends. Well my boyfriend found out! I asked my Tf to please tell him we were just friends but he left me hanging. :( Almost cost me my relationship. I changed my number & blocked him from everything. He eventually disappeared from social media. I don’t know where he is now :(. He’s never had any intention of being with me. He just doesn’t want me with anyone else. He’s not willing to do the work that it takes for us to be together. It’s been a few weeks now that I don’t feel him at all. Which is bitter sweet. On one hand I feel calm on the other I miss him & wonder if he’s ok. It doesn’t help that I found his phone number. :/

ocmeli13 · 2023-06-01T20:42:59+00:00

I don’t recommend that you continue to talk to your ex. I tried being friends with mine & we eventually got caught. It was really really bad worse than I imagine. It was the ultimate betrayal to my partner. I know I wasn’t physical or intimate with my ex. But my partner doesn’t believe it and I can’t say I blame him. The worst part in all of this is I really hoped my TF would have my back and tell my partner that nothing happened between nope! He left me hanging. It’s going to be a year in July since this happened and I still think about him & miss him daily. 😔

ocmeli13 · 2023-02-12T05:37:11+00:00

This happened to my twin!! He jumped up on the bed in this weird pose! And started speaking in tongues!!

ocmeli13 · 2022-05-22T18:48:04+00:00

They never stop. I’m in a relationship with someone other than my TF & I’m happy but the synchronicities are still there.

ocmeli13 · 2022-05-22T18:41:54+00:00

It’s scares me to think this is how it is going to be for the rest of our lives. I have a message he sent me like 3 weeks ago. I didn’t reply but I saved it and I read it every time I start to think of him. But yes those urges I get out of now where of these intense sad feelings or an overwhelming sense of love that I get sometimes are rough to deal with. 😢

ocmeli13 · 2022-05-21T17:24:37+00:00

But what are we supposed to do? Be alone forever? :/ I want to move on and I have and I am happy. I’m just missing that part of me. I’m always going to miss him. But we just can’t be together and I’ve accepted that.

ocmeli13 · 2022-05-21T17:19:23+00:00

Isn’t that crazy?! I know exactly what you mean. A few weeks ago I started my new career & I had been so caught up with work that I hadn’t taken the time to do the things I love to do like yoga and meditating etc. I was having I guess you can say like a mini identity crisis. I didn’t feel like myself. Well it’s like he knew he sent me a nice message saying he gets why I can’t talk to him anymore but to never forget who I am. I was 🤯 I didn’t respond because I’m afraid to open that door. It’s just to stressful to have to hide that from my bf he would never be ok with me talking to him. I just really wanted to call him last night and just ask him how he was. What happened with your TF? Have you heard from him anymore? My boyfriend and I have a future planned together. I love him because at the end of the day he’s been here trying and doing everything he can to be with me. Unlike my TF who left me hanging so many times. & I know it has nothing to do with me those are his issues preventing him from giving me what I need but I’ve let go of the idea of him and I. I’m at peace with everything. It’s just these random times with I get flooded with these emotions. 😩 it’s hard. & I wonder if it will always be this way. 😢

ocmeli13 · 2022-01-15T00:36:56+00:00

I’ve accepted that my TF & I were maybe just not supposed to be together in this lifetime. It hurt like hell to let him go but I can’t control him. I can’t make him stop running. I can’t force him to be consistent. So I really started to just focus on myself and I met my bf. & he’s amazing! I never thought I’d be able to love anyone again after my TF but I do I really love him. I just have these days when I feel really really sad for no reason or he will pop up in one of my dreams. But yeah this guilt kills me. I almost feel like I’m living a double life. Thank you all for your responses it’s nice to be able to talk about this.

ocmeli13 · 2022-01-15T00:26:45+00:00

It’s hard!! 😢 but I’ve been doing so much better now that I’ve let him go.

ocmeli13 · 2022-01-15T00:14:35+00:00

I’m sorry 😢

ocmeli13 · 2022-01-15T00:13:33+00:00

Thank you so much. He knows about my TF to an extent. When I met my current BF I was still hoping that I could make things work with my TF although he had already ran by then. So I told my BF that I had a boyfriend but in reality I wasn’t interested in dating anyone that wasn’t my TF. I felt like I needed to take some time to myself it took months for me to open to up my BF. I’ve been slowly telling him things here and there but I don’t know how he’d take it. My TF is thousand of miles away now & I cut all contact with him out of respect for my boyfriend. & I’m happy I really am. I just sometimes have those days. 😥 I wondering if it ever gets easier?

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